Just another day to go to the start of another conference - Engaging the revelatory realm (by Dr James Goll). Had been waiting for this day to arrive and not exactly sure what to expect out of this conference yet. Probably the 2nd day will be much clearer.
Dad, I know not what to expect out of this conference, but I do know that You have something in store for me out of this conference. I just want to remain in Your Presence throughout the entire conference and also to discern Your Ways for me in this new phase in life.
Holy Spirit, fill my 3 days with the Presence of God and show me the Ways. You shall lead me and guide my heart. I'm going for this conference with expectations of receiving from the Lord and guide my heart in every part of the conference itself.
Thank You Lord Jesus for this conference. I wanna see more of You.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Friday, May 10, 2013
Evening session @ 3 nites of glory
it's the 2nd night at the conference - 3 nights of glory by joshua mills. the experience is interesting on the 1st night where gold dusts can be seen on my palms when Joshua Mills told us to lift up our hands into the holy presence.
all of us were amazed and i was fascinated by the sparkles on my palm.. for a moment i was thinking if it's my sweaty palm..
it's 2nd night and i've made a prayer. And i also want to see more of the gold dusts.. if possible, gemstones too (since it had been recorded in Youtube)?
i do have some expectations tonite and i pray that i can see these expectations.
Daddy, settle my heart, okie?
Thursday, May 09, 2013
Reviving this blog and re-living new moments with Daddy..
It's been ages and I've long forgotten this blog site until early May 2013. I started to read all the past blogs and remembered the days with Daddy. I missed those days and wanted them back once again. It had been a long plunge from high grounds and it takes time to recover from the plunge. Slowly and steady, Daddy will lead me home - to the highest grounds.
Whether I'm discerning correctly or not, it doesn't matter to me anymore. It's a one-step per day and allowing Daddy to hold me and carry me.
Daddy, I missed Your Presence. I want to feel Your Presence again. Where You are leading me, I know not. Whether my prayers are answered, I know not either. I've lost numerous and is this the life You have for me?
I want to start everything in life all over again and this time, You take the lead. At this moment, I just want You to embrace me, that's all..
Time to revive this blog page and this whole blog is dedicated to You alone, Daddy. Each post is going to be an account of all the blessings and encounters with You.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Count My Blessings
Many times I wonder how faithful or rather how real Lord Jesus is. Was it because my faith in Jesus became weak? Or was it that I have started to lose hope in Him who exists? Or was it due to my missing of my dad?
Most of the time when I'm alone, I felt that a large part of me is missing. And that missing part is always related to my dad. I'm truly amazed with my mom who took it well. Guess after all her years of enduring my dad? Or perhaps it's really the Lord who gave her the ultimate strength? I missed sms-ing him with messages to tell him I love him, to tell him that I'll buy dinner for him, to share with him about my day, etc.. I missed listening to his stories of his younger days. Or rather I missed arguing with him..
The problem of being too close to someone tends to make our hearts yearn for the person's presence once again after he/she has left on a new journey. But if one is not being close to our own family member, it feels like as though we have not done our part as son/daughter to love the other person when he/she is still with us. No doubt that my dad has gone on his new adventure, many times I wonder where he is, how's he doing, what's he doing, and main thing is he really still alive spiritually? I won't know the answer till I go back to Heaven. If I don't see him there, can I ask Daddy God for my dad to be with me in Heaven? There are so many questions that will be left unanswered until I'm home with Jesus.
I remember having played a game with my friend and one of the questions asked "If there is a wall, what way will I use to go over to the other side of the wall?" Well, my answer is walking to the end of the wall and then turn to the other side. But, how far is it to the end of the wall? I visualised an extreme long journey to the end of the wall (juz like the Great Wall of China?).
It's just a picture to indicate how long it'll take me to get over to the other side of the wall.. Perhaps a very long time in which I've no idea.. Sometimes, I also wonder why love can be so painful to such extent? I was also wondering why was it that I'm always the last person to know of some things that happened at home? How very unfair! However, I still want to thank God that everything is peaceful and nothing bad will happen anymore, as all of us are already in Christ (including my sis-in-law and brother). That is to say, the entire Yeow family is saved.
Each time when I started to fade and lose hope, I started to count my blessings that Daddy God had graciously granted to me.
Blessing #1 - a wonderful dad and mom who strived so hard as one flesh, to bring up both my brother and I,
Blessing #2 - a wonderful sis-in-law whom I can really teased and shared my heart with,
Blessing #3 - two wonderful kids at home to keep my mom occupied and also to bring fun and laughter in the family,
Blessing #4 - never to forget my 2 lovable friends who had been with me throughout this time, having to endure my grouchiness.. Praise Jesus for them..
Blessing #5 - a job to keep my mind busy,
Blessing #6 - a close friend who has also been keeping me in her prayer,
Blessing #7 - able to breathe every second,
Blessing #8 - able to walk, run, jump,
Blessing #9 - able to listen to sermons, music, voices, noises, etc,
Blessing #10 - able to have time with my mom,
Blessing #11 - able to feel, taste, and smell,
Blessing #12 - very important, having Lord Jesus as my Ultimate Savior and Friend,
Blessing #13 - able to serve in church,
Blessing #14 - have the chance to read the bible and know more about Lord Jesus,
.
.
.
.
The list of blessings can never end coz our Father in Heaven never ceases to love us with His Love, to shower us with His tender loving care and kindness, to grant us with His favour every day, to bless us with His abundant blessings, etc..
Daddy God, despite of my doubts about your existence, You still love me as who I am, and what I am. You do not see me in my own self being, but You see me in Christ Jesus. That His Blood had washed me completely of all my sins, that He died my death, that He took all the punishments that were meant for me, that He bore all the sicknesses that were meant for me, all the curses that He took on my behalf. Daddy God, nothing of myself is worthy of Your attention but You took time to pay attention to my needs and my calls for You. You love me so much that You won't want to see me cry. You have been containing all my tears in Your Tear-Bottle and You will never let a single drop of my tears to waste. Lord Jesus, I just don't know what to do but to depend on You. I've no choice but to cast all my cares, all my pains, all my worries, all my problems to You. I don't know how to deal with issues in life but You know how to resolve every single one of them for me. I don't know how, I don't know when but I do know You can and You will solve everything for me and my family. Lord Jesus, unto You, I cast everything for Your attention and Your action. Thank You Jesus. I don't care how You do it, I just know You will solve them for me. You know what they are and I don't need to spell out every single one of them. Daddy God, as Jesus is in Heaven right now, so am I on earth. He is my Righteousness, my Understanding, my Wisdom, my Provider, my Healer and literally my Everything. There's nothing I can hold in my hands, and You can hold them all in Your Mighty Hands. Who can go against You, who is the Almighty One? Daddy God, unto You, my soul, body and mind rest. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen..
Most of the time when I'm alone, I felt that a large part of me is missing. And that missing part is always related to my dad. I'm truly amazed with my mom who took it well. Guess after all her years of enduring my dad? Or perhaps it's really the Lord who gave her the ultimate strength? I missed sms-ing him with messages to tell him I love him, to tell him that I'll buy dinner for him, to share with him about my day, etc.. I missed listening to his stories of his younger days. Or rather I missed arguing with him..
The problem of being too close to someone tends to make our hearts yearn for the person's presence once again after he/she has left on a new journey. But if one is not being close to our own family member, it feels like as though we have not done our part as son/daughter to love the other person when he/she is still with us. No doubt that my dad has gone on his new adventure, many times I wonder where he is, how's he doing, what's he doing, and main thing is he really still alive spiritually? I won't know the answer till I go back to Heaven. If I don't see him there, can I ask Daddy God for my dad to be with me in Heaven? There are so many questions that will be left unanswered until I'm home with Jesus.
I remember having played a game with my friend and one of the questions asked "If there is a wall, what way will I use to go over to the other side of the wall?" Well, my answer is walking to the end of the wall and then turn to the other side. But, how far is it to the end of the wall? I visualised an extreme long journey to the end of the wall (juz like the Great Wall of China?).
It's just a picture to indicate how long it'll take me to get over to the other side of the wall.. Perhaps a very long time in which I've no idea.. Sometimes, I also wonder why love can be so painful to such extent? I was also wondering why was it that I'm always the last person to know of some things that happened at home? How very unfair! However, I still want to thank God that everything is peaceful and nothing bad will happen anymore, as all of us are already in Christ (including my sis-in-law and brother). That is to say, the entire Yeow family is saved.
Each time when I started to fade and lose hope, I started to count my blessings that Daddy God had graciously granted to me.
Blessing #1 - a wonderful dad and mom who strived so hard as one flesh, to bring up both my brother and I,
Blessing #2 - a wonderful sis-in-law whom I can really teased and shared my heart with,
Blessing #3 - two wonderful kids at home to keep my mom occupied and also to bring fun and laughter in the family,
Blessing #4 - never to forget my 2 lovable friends who had been with me throughout this time, having to endure my grouchiness.. Praise Jesus for them..
Blessing #5 - a job to keep my mind busy,
Blessing #6 - a close friend who has also been keeping me in her prayer,
Blessing #7 - able to breathe every second,
Blessing #8 - able to walk, run, jump,
Blessing #9 - able to listen to sermons, music, voices, noises, etc,
Blessing #10 - able to have time with my mom,
Blessing #11 - able to feel, taste, and smell,
Blessing #12 - very important, having Lord Jesus as my Ultimate Savior and Friend,
Blessing #13 - able to serve in church,
Blessing #14 - have the chance to read the bible and know more about Lord Jesus,
.
.
.
.
The list of blessings can never end coz our Father in Heaven never ceases to love us with His Love, to shower us with His tender loving care and kindness, to grant us with His favour every day, to bless us with His abundant blessings, etc..
Daddy God, despite of my doubts about your existence, You still love me as who I am, and what I am. You do not see me in my own self being, but You see me in Christ Jesus. That His Blood had washed me completely of all my sins, that He died my death, that He took all the punishments that were meant for me, that He bore all the sicknesses that were meant for me, all the curses that He took on my behalf. Daddy God, nothing of myself is worthy of Your attention but You took time to pay attention to my needs and my calls for You. You love me so much that You won't want to see me cry. You have been containing all my tears in Your Tear-Bottle and You will never let a single drop of my tears to waste. Lord Jesus, I just don't know what to do but to depend on You. I've no choice but to cast all my cares, all my pains, all my worries, all my problems to You. I don't know how to deal with issues in life but You know how to resolve every single one of them for me. I don't know how, I don't know when but I do know You can and You will solve everything for me and my family. Lord Jesus, unto You, I cast everything for Your attention and Your action. Thank You Jesus. I don't care how You do it, I just know You will solve them for me. You know what they are and I don't need to spell out every single one of them. Daddy God, as Jesus is in Heaven right now, so am I on earth. He is my Righteousness, my Understanding, my Wisdom, my Provider, my Healer and literally my Everything. There's nothing I can hold in my hands, and You can hold them all in Your Mighty Hands. Who can go against You, who is the Almighty One? Daddy God, unto You, my soul, body and mind rest. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen..
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Fun time @ church function
Wow... I thank Daddy God for such a fun time at my church's Ministry of Helps function nite.. There has never been a day that I will feel bored ever since I entered this church. Initially, I thought that I won't be able to make it for the function coz of my "bad" flu that caused me to have throat infection and high fever for the past few days. Praise Jesus that one of my friends called me last night and we were on the phone for nearly an hr. Right after the conversation, I noticed that my throat wasn't as painful as it was earlier in the day.
Indeed, I've received my healing and I'm continuing to receive total healing from this dreaded flu. Well, whatever it is, I'm still able to make it for the function. It was a nite of total fun and laughter. Truly praise Jesus for making this possible for me.
Well.. there was a song which Deacon Jeffrey sang at the last section of the function that helped me see Jesus again. I felt so weak throughout the week and after listening to this, He is my Strength.. It's a song by Steve Curtis Chapman..
His Strength is Perfect
I can do all things,
Through Christ who gives me strength,
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me.
No great success to show
No glory on my own
Yet in my weakness
He is there to let me know
His Strength is perfect,
When our strength is gone.
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His Power, the weak becomes strong
His Strength is perfect
His Strength is perfect
We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His Strength in us begins
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again
A beautiful song and it melts my heart right there and then.. Jesus is my Strength.. Many people told me to be strong for my mom after my dad passed away.. Many times, I told the Lord that I can't and don't even know how to be strong.. I'm felt so weak and tired and just can't find the strength at times.. This song just cuts right into my heart now as I start to think more about His Love for me and His Strength in me.
Now I know that it's Jesus telling me that "Darling.. My Strength is perfect. Just rest in my bosoms and I will carry you all the way. I'm putting you on my Shoulders and I'm carrying you all the way."
Lord Jesus, I want to thank You that You are my Strength. You are my Comforter. I have no idea how to move on with life without You, Lord. It is You who gave me the Strength that I need. You are the One to show me the Way. You are the One who can direct every footstep that I take. Lord, I thank You that You are ALIVE. Thank you for loving me and my entire family. I'm so blessed, so favoured and so loved by You. Thank You Lord Jesus.. And because of Your Love, my entire family is already saved including my sis-in-law. I thank You that my sis-in-law's entire family are also saved! :D In Your Most Wonderful, Mighty Name, I pray. Amen!
Indeed, I've received my healing and I'm continuing to receive total healing from this dreaded flu. Well, whatever it is, I'm still able to make it for the function. It was a nite of total fun and laughter. Truly praise Jesus for making this possible for me.
Well.. there was a song which Deacon Jeffrey sang at the last section of the function that helped me see Jesus again. I felt so weak throughout the week and after listening to this, He is my Strength.. It's a song by Steve Curtis Chapman..
His Strength is Perfect
I can do all things,
Through Christ who gives me strength,
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me.
No great success to show
No glory on my own
Yet in my weakness
He is there to let me know
His Strength is perfect,
When our strength is gone.
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His Power, the weak becomes strong
His Strength is perfect
His Strength is perfect
We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His Strength in us begins
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again
A beautiful song and it melts my heart right there and then.. Jesus is my Strength.. Many people told me to be strong for my mom after my dad passed away.. Many times, I told the Lord that I can't and don't even know how to be strong.. I'm felt so weak and tired and just can't find the strength at times.. This song just cuts right into my heart now as I start to think more about His Love for me and His Strength in me.
Now I know that it's Jesus telling me that "Darling.. My Strength is perfect. Just rest in my bosoms and I will carry you all the way. I'm putting you on my Shoulders and I'm carrying you all the way."
Lord Jesus, I want to thank You that You are my Strength. You are my Comforter. I have no idea how to move on with life without You, Lord. It is You who gave me the Strength that I need. You are the One to show me the Way. You are the One who can direct every footstep that I take. Lord, I thank You that You are ALIVE. Thank you for loving me and my entire family. I'm so blessed, so favoured and so loved by You. Thank You Lord Jesus.. And because of Your Love, my entire family is already saved including my sis-in-law. I thank You that my sis-in-law's entire family are also saved! :D In Your Most Wonderful, Mighty Name, I pray. Amen!
Monday, October 24, 2005
Faith comes by hearing and hearing alone
To what extent that faith comes by? Previously, I used to think that as long as we speak forth the Word of God, faith will come automatically. It was pretty interesting when my church pastor pointed out the scriptural verses to show us that faith actually comes by hearing and hearing alone - Romans 10:17
Many times, we tend to misplace faith to our own self-effort that we must do something to have faith. However it's not. It's only by the hearing the Word of God that faith will be stirred up within our hearts. When faith was being stirred up, we tend to speak forth thanksgiving to our Lord Jesus. Sometimes even when faith wasn't stirred up in our hearts, just listening to the sermons also brings forth blessings.
I never understood how listening to the Word of God can actually help me solve the problems until today. I had been fretting over some work and subconsciously, I ended up listening to sermons again. Praise be to Jesus that help came very fast. Initially I was having a lot of problems understanding a new programming language. And thank God that He sent my colleague to help me. My colleague ended up writing the entire program. :P and I've managed to learn some interesting stuffs.
I didn't realise it until much later when I reached home. Well.. the only thing I knew was that my inner being was being fed with the Word and I had no idea how the problems can actually be resolved.. Whatever it is, I still thank Daddy God for sending help.. :D
okie.. time to buzz off for another few days or rather weeks, I guess..
Many times, we tend to misplace faith to our own self-effort that we must do something to have faith. However it's not. It's only by the hearing the Word of God that faith will be stirred up within our hearts. When faith was being stirred up, we tend to speak forth thanksgiving to our Lord Jesus. Sometimes even when faith wasn't stirred up in our hearts, just listening to the sermons also brings forth blessings.
I never understood how listening to the Word of God can actually help me solve the problems until today. I had been fretting over some work and subconsciously, I ended up listening to sermons again. Praise be to Jesus that help came very fast. Initially I was having a lot of problems understanding a new programming language. And thank God that He sent my colleague to help me. My colleague ended up writing the entire program. :P and I've managed to learn some interesting stuffs.
I didn't realise it until much later when I reached home. Well.. the only thing I knew was that my inner being was being fed with the Word and I had no idea how the problems can actually be resolved.. Whatever it is, I still thank Daddy God for sending help.. :D
okie.. time to buzz off for another few days or rather weeks, I guess..
Monday, October 10, 2005
To my most beloved daddy..
Days have come and gone,
Our hearts are still as one,
A moment of this time that,
I see you not with my eyes.
The eyes of my heart see you,
Happy and Perfect,
Joyful and Peaceful,
All days in Heaven with Jesus.
You may have departed,
It's only for a time being.
Nothing can tear us apart,
Not even death.
No matter what you have done,
I still love you very deeply.
You are my most beloved daddy,
and I thank God for you.
I long to see you,
To listen to your soothing voice,
To be with you,
All the days of my life.
Tears may flow,
Heart may sorrow,
But my spirit is lifted,
Coz you still alive.
You are in every beat of my heart,
You are in every step that I take.
You are in every thoughts that I make,
You are in every words that I speak.
And most importantly,
You are still alive, and
You are in Heaven now.
Till the time comes,
We will definitely meet again.
For this is the promise of
our Heavenly Father and Lord Jesus.
Amen..
Our hearts are still as one,
A moment of this time that,
I see you not with my eyes.
The eyes of my heart see you,
Happy and Perfect,
Joyful and Peaceful,
All days in Heaven with Jesus.
You may have departed,
It's only for a time being.
Nothing can tear us apart,
Not even death.
No matter what you have done,
I still love you very deeply.
You are my most beloved daddy,
and I thank God for you.
I long to see you,
To listen to your soothing voice,
To be with you,
All the days of my life.
Tears may flow,
Heart may sorrow,
But my spirit is lifted,
Coz you still alive.
You are in every beat of my heart,
You are in every step that I take.
You are in every thoughts that I make,
You are in every words that I speak.
And most importantly,
You are still alive, and
You are in Heaven now.
Till the time comes,
We will definitely meet again.
For this is the promise of
our Heavenly Father and Lord Jesus.
Amen..
Sunday, October 09, 2005
5 loaves and 2 fishes
Many days have passed and it's been three weeks, almost four weeks that my entire family's life and mine were changed. I thank Daddy God for His Comfort that He had given to me in my life and my family and also for every little things. I remember telling my friends before I came into New Creation Church was that, if we learn how to give thanks to Daddy God for small little things in our lives, how much more He will give us bigger things to us. And I suddenly recalled telling this to many of my friends before after listening to Pastor Prince's sermons today.
Daddy God, I thank you for my dad and my mom whom you have put them together all these years in my life, despite the evil efforts of destructions from the fallen one. I thank You even more that my dad's soul is now in your bosom and he's happy in Heaven which is called HOME to us all. Your Love for me is always there, even when I don't even deserve any. Your Grace surpasses all things and truly, You are my everything, Lord Jesus. And all these I give thanks to the Father, and Lord Jesus! Amen!
Wah!! mom's snoring liao. hahaha.. well, I thank Daddy God for a peaceful rest for her and my entire family.
Oh yah.. before I forget.. now back to the 5 loaves and 2 fishes.. When Pastor Prince was sharing about this verse and he's talking about thanksgiving. Interestingly the Holy Spirit showed me the hidden Grace Covenant! Hahaha.. 5 speaks of grace and 2 speaks of covenant. So fun!! There's a hidden grace covenant in this and Jesus was giving thanks to the Father, not only for the loaves and the fish.. Also for the Grace of the Father on everyone of us. His passion for us is so great that nothing can compare to it.
Gee.. dun know whether I'm on the right track or not. But anyway, this was in my thoughts during the sermons. hee..
okie.. time to sleep.. May all of u have a blessed week ahead!! A week full of joy and peace.. SHALOM!!
Daddy God, I thank you for my dad and my mom whom you have put them together all these years in my life, despite the evil efforts of destructions from the fallen one. I thank You even more that my dad's soul is now in your bosom and he's happy in Heaven which is called HOME to us all. Your Love for me is always there, even when I don't even deserve any. Your Grace surpasses all things and truly, You are my everything, Lord Jesus. And all these I give thanks to the Father, and Lord Jesus! Amen!
Wah!! mom's snoring liao. hahaha.. well, I thank Daddy God for a peaceful rest for her and my entire family.
Oh yah.. before I forget.. now back to the 5 loaves and 2 fishes.. When Pastor Prince was sharing about this verse and he's talking about thanksgiving. Interestingly the Holy Spirit showed me the hidden Grace Covenant! Hahaha.. 5 speaks of grace and 2 speaks of covenant. So fun!! There's a hidden grace covenant in this and Jesus was giving thanks to the Father, not only for the loaves and the fish.. Also for the Grace of the Father on everyone of us. His passion for us is so great that nothing can compare to it.
Gee.. dun know whether I'm on the right track or not. But anyway, this was in my thoughts during the sermons. hee..
okie.. time to sleep.. May all of u have a blessed week ahead!! A week full of joy and peace.. SHALOM!!
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