Mark 8:22-25 --> Why does Jesus touched the blind man's eyes TWICE at Bethsaida?
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They came to Bethsaida, and some people brought a blind man and begged Jesus to touch him.
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He took the blind man by the hand and led him outside the village. When he had spit on the man's eyes and put his hands on him, Jesus asked, "Do you see anything?"
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He looked up and said, "I see people; they look like trees walking around."
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Once more Jesus put his hands on the man's eyes. Then his eyes were
opened, his sight was restored, and he saw everything clearly.
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Jesus sent him home, saying, "Don't go into the village. "
My tots over this passage -->
1st time Jesus had spit on the man's eyes and put His hands upon him,
the man was able to see but it was a blurry image - seeing people that
look like trees.. That tickles me, coz my imagination went a little
wilder.. But how does he know people and trees look like?
2nd time Jesus put His hands on the man's eyes again, and the man's sight was restored.
What I can derive from here is that because eyes are related to seeing,
and seeing is related to revelation. Having his eyes opened, he is able
to see the Word of God is alive (Jesus is the Word of God). Next, Jesus
asked him if he's seeing anything? Somehow, something must have gone on
within him that he started to believe, though he saw the people look
like trees in the very first instance. It was somewhat like a 60-fold
healing when he spoke forth, believing in his heart, and he's also
receiving a revelation. THEN Jesus put His hand on the man's eyes again
and the man looked [INTENTLY - as stated in AMP bible] before he was
restored and saw everything distinctly.
I believe that the
man had his eyes so fixated onto Jesus first - seeing Him as the Messiah
and his heart changed toward Jesus Himself. That was when he was fully
restored with perfect vision!
So, when we fix our eyes on Jesus
Himself, we can see that all our problems will be fixed, and restoration
will come and finally ABLE TO SEE THE GOODNESS OF GOD's HEART AND
DIRECTION IN OUR LIVES.
Monday, August 26, 2013
Monday, August 19, 2013
Overwhelming peace
It had been another season of big struggle and a decision to make whether to take on a new job or simply trust God in His directions. This morning, my heart was so down and out that I wished that I don't have to make any decisions. My faith had been so minuscule to the point that it can't be detected at all. I was thinking back of all the events that happened and how God had really touched in my life, I can't simply ignore what He had been wanting me to go into. I think I'm one of those who have been testing God so much to the point that He may get so irritated and wanted to just shake my head and say, HEY!! WAKE UP!!!
Instead, Daddy God had been so loving, soft and silent in His confirmations and He brought out so much beauty in His confirmations for me. I was like asking for so many confirmations and still asking for more confirmations.
This morning was a crunching moment to decide what I wanted to do and weigh what I love to do. I don't like anything that will bound me down and making me so lifeless after that. It's not the life that God had wanted me either. He had always been trying to tell me that things will be alright and just trust Him. Perhaps it had been one of those struggles that I had in life that made me totally lost all confidence and trusts - endless betrayals and back-stabbings, etc.. I was like why in the world am I going thru these.
I knew I'm being marked out for something and I seriously have no idea what I'm being marked out for. I only know that I don't take "No" for an answer and kept barging in for an answer. Oh.. I've gone out of my tots now and back to my main topic..
This morning, I took the step of faith to walk into God's direction and not pursuing the things of man. I've decided to pursue God and His Goodness (though I'm kindda blur blur in acknowledging it many times). God says that I'm a simple girl and wants simple things. Yes, coz He made me so. And I only love simple things coz in my world and vision, I want to see things in a simple and plain manner. Anyway having made that decision, I felt a surge of overwhelming peace within. My colleague who is also a strong believer, shared with me about Rebecca and how the peace came about after her decision to follow the unnamed Servant.
The unnamed Servant here now in my situation is the Holy Spirit and He had been nudging in my heart to follow Jesus and and God's directions. Henceforth, my decision is to follow Jesus and I trust that He will take care of everything for me. It was the same overwhelming peace that I had in March 2013 when I told Daddy God that I will put down the potential business income that can provide for my mom and trust in Him to provide everything.
Ahhh.. now that i see, the devil is using my mom as the point to stop me from moving in God's direction. In Jesus name, my mom is fully protected and nothing by any means shall harm her. Coz Lord Jesus paid the price for her and me. We shall reign in life together and we shall have the most rewarding and fulfilling life that God has given to us.
Thank you Holy Spirit.. Thank you so much.. I love you, Daddy God. I love you Lord Jesus and I love you too, Holy Spirit...
Amen!
Instead, Daddy God had been so loving, soft and silent in His confirmations and He brought out so much beauty in His confirmations for me. I was like asking for so many confirmations and still asking for more confirmations.
This morning was a crunching moment to decide what I wanted to do and weigh what I love to do. I don't like anything that will bound me down and making me so lifeless after that. It's not the life that God had wanted me either. He had always been trying to tell me that things will be alright and just trust Him. Perhaps it had been one of those struggles that I had in life that made me totally lost all confidence and trusts - endless betrayals and back-stabbings, etc.. I was like why in the world am I going thru these.
I knew I'm being marked out for something and I seriously have no idea what I'm being marked out for. I only know that I don't take "No" for an answer and kept barging in for an answer. Oh.. I've gone out of my tots now and back to my main topic..
This morning, I took the step of faith to walk into God's direction and not pursuing the things of man. I've decided to pursue God and His Goodness (though I'm kindda blur blur in acknowledging it many times). God says that I'm a simple girl and wants simple things. Yes, coz He made me so. And I only love simple things coz in my world and vision, I want to see things in a simple and plain manner. Anyway having made that decision, I felt a surge of overwhelming peace within. My colleague who is also a strong believer, shared with me about Rebecca and how the peace came about after her decision to follow the unnamed Servant.
The unnamed Servant here now in my situation is the Holy Spirit and He had been nudging in my heart to follow Jesus and and God's directions. Henceforth, my decision is to follow Jesus and I trust that He will take care of everything for me. It was the same overwhelming peace that I had in March 2013 when I told Daddy God that I will put down the potential business income that can provide for my mom and trust in Him to provide everything.
Ahhh.. now that i see, the devil is using my mom as the point to stop me from moving in God's direction. In Jesus name, my mom is fully protected and nothing by any means shall harm her. Coz Lord Jesus paid the price for her and me. We shall reign in life together and we shall have the most rewarding and fulfilling life that God has given to us.
Thank you Holy Spirit.. Thank you so much.. I love you, Daddy God. I love you Lord Jesus and I love you too, Holy Spirit...
Amen!
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Blessings and protection in the midst of torrential storms - Part 1
Dad has been really cool!! About His Protection and Provisions...
This year had been filled with quite some strong torrential storms but thank God for arming me with His Word, that nothing shall be any means harm me or my family. I was thinking through alot this year and always wondered what am I here for on earth? For once, I noticed that I didn't know God as much as I thought I had.
I started to question God about Himself and what does He want to do with me in my life? I've ranted at Him and refused to remember what He had done for me over the years in my career and personal life. It was like a moment of not able to recall what happened since I was young and I told God, give me back my childhood days.
Things started to change 2 years ago after I left a job that gave me a lot of pains and hurts for 4 years. Kindda felt rather so dumb about having toiled like a mad person and ended up all efforts actually came to nought with little or no recognition. Felt so devastated during then and my heart became so bitter to the point that I don't trust God anymore.
During the days after I left that job, I told myself that I shall not shed a tear over anything and I refused to shed any tears. Apparently, it's even more painful for not doing so, coz I'm bottling up all my pains within me. Ended up, my health deteriorated and my blood pressure shot up real high.
Many times, I wanted to just say goodbye to the world and ask Dad to bring me home coz I couldn't find any purpose to live a life here. I felt that life was so tough since childhood and wondered how come I still have to go through so much nonsense in life. I've questioned God many times and I can't seem to "hear" His answers.
I may have heard His answers but they never seem to etch deeply within me. I guess my mind was just ranting loudly and refused to quiet down to listen. This is something that I had been doing - that is, not giving time to the Lord. Till now, I'm still struggling with this and I really have no idea how to settle down quietly to listen to His voice.
to be continued.......
This year had been filled with quite some strong torrential storms but thank God for arming me with His Word, that nothing shall be any means harm me or my family. I was thinking through alot this year and always wondered what am I here for on earth? For once, I noticed that I didn't know God as much as I thought I had.
I started to question God about Himself and what does He want to do with me in my life? I've ranted at Him and refused to remember what He had done for me over the years in my career and personal life. It was like a moment of not able to recall what happened since I was young and I told God, give me back my childhood days.
Things started to change 2 years ago after I left a job that gave me a lot of pains and hurts for 4 years. Kindda felt rather so dumb about having toiled like a mad person and ended up all efforts actually came to nought with little or no recognition. Felt so devastated during then and my heart became so bitter to the point that I don't trust God anymore.
During the days after I left that job, I told myself that I shall not shed a tear over anything and I refused to shed any tears. Apparently, it's even more painful for not doing so, coz I'm bottling up all my pains within me. Ended up, my health deteriorated and my blood pressure shot up real high.
Many times, I wanted to just say goodbye to the world and ask Dad to bring me home coz I couldn't find any purpose to live a life here. I felt that life was so tough since childhood and wondered how come I still have to go through so much nonsense in life. I've questioned God many times and I can't seem to "hear" His answers.
I may have heard His answers but they never seem to etch deeply within me. I guess my mind was just ranting loudly and refused to quiet down to listen. This is something that I had been doing - that is, not giving time to the Lord. Till now, I'm still struggling with this and I really have no idea how to settle down quietly to listen to His voice.
to be continued.......
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Sustainability and protection - all for His love's sake
Last two weeks had been a week so filled with God's protection and sustainability. I had a bout of food poisoning after ingesting some roach droppings that happened to be cooked together with the rice. By the time I realised their existence in the rice, some of them had made their way into my stomach. In my mind, I told myself that it will not affect me and my week.
True enough, it didn't adversely affect me throughout the entire week until the end of all the conference meetings and a wkend hi-tea gathering with Ps Corey (from Australia) and my group of blogger friends. Daddy God, thank You for the protection during that entire week and keeping me with Your Strength.
Though the symptoms were minor during the conference meeting, they didn't stop my body from worshipping the Lord. The conference which I attended was "Releasing the Sound of Heavens" and it's all about praise and worship.
The entire conference was awesome with Ps Chris Dupree and Dan McCollam - having to learn about worshipping. Probably will post it one day about the worshipping and the different kinds of worship.
Right after the conference meeting, my stomach started to churn a bit more with lotsa air running ard my digestive tracts.. But Dad sustained me all the way until the end of the gathering with Ps Corey and the bloggers @ Lime Restaurant for hi-tea.
When I reached home, fever started breaking out and all went loosed - bowels.. ugh... green, watery, blah blah blah.. sure signs of food poisoning... Had a short sms-ing time with my Rock Kids leader - Cheryl, and she told me to take Holy Comm. I thank God for her who was placed in my life to remind me.
Right after taking the Holy Comm and some medications, i fell into a sleep - only to wake up abt 2 hrs later without any break from the fever. I got pretty mad this time and I asked the Holy Spirit to fight this food poisoning immediately. Amazingly, Dad.. the Holy Spirit fought the food poisoning immediately and the high fever broke right after the prayer. Still felt a little feverish and I took the last panadols to bring down the fever and slept through the night.
The next morning, the fever had gone leaving remnants of the food poisoning (i.e. rumbling stomach and solid state green bowels).. Still feeling the tiredness and boy.. my mom did got on my nerves. Though I snapped at her in church, I didn't feel much pain except to feel annoyed by her nonsense... Anyway, thank God that my grumpiness didn't last long and things went back normal after the service.. :P
Without any appetite for food and feeling nauseous, my stomach sure enjoyed the gummies!! Had so much of the gummies that I felt so happy after that.. lol.. anyway, sugars are meant to make you happy esp when your stomach is so upset.. :P Quite a way to cheer it up..
After the whole day in church, I decided to see the doctor for medications to restore the good bacteria in my tummy and I was given 2 days mc which I was like yay!! i can sleep more for the 2 days and really rest.
In essence after the whole week, I saw how Daddy God had been protecting me from the dreaded food poisoning and how He sustained me throughout the entire week to enjoy worshipping Him. This seemed to be like a warfare but the only thing in my head tells me is, I don't give a hoot to what the devil is trying to do on me. My God protects me with His shield, His Sword will just kill any evil that's trying to harm me, His Love will simply embrace me totally - like a child carried in His arms.
Thank You Dad for everything that through Lord Jesus Christ who died for me and sending the Holy Spirit to be my protector, healer, teacher, guidance and everything. In Jesus name, amen. =)
True enough, it didn't adversely affect me throughout the entire week until the end of all the conference meetings and a wkend hi-tea gathering with Ps Corey (from Australia) and my group of blogger friends. Daddy God, thank You for the protection during that entire week and keeping me with Your Strength.
Though the symptoms were minor during the conference meeting, they didn't stop my body from worshipping the Lord. The conference which I attended was "Releasing the Sound of Heavens" and it's all about praise and worship.
The entire conference was awesome with Ps Chris Dupree and Dan McCollam - having to learn about worshipping. Probably will post it one day about the worshipping and the different kinds of worship.
Right after the conference meeting, my stomach started to churn a bit more with lotsa air running ard my digestive tracts.. But Dad sustained me all the way until the end of the gathering with Ps Corey and the bloggers @ Lime Restaurant for hi-tea.
When I reached home, fever started breaking out and all went loosed - bowels.. ugh... green, watery, blah blah blah.. sure signs of food poisoning... Had a short sms-ing time with my Rock Kids leader - Cheryl, and she told me to take Holy Comm. I thank God for her who was placed in my life to remind me.
Right after taking the Holy Comm and some medications, i fell into a sleep - only to wake up abt 2 hrs later without any break from the fever. I got pretty mad this time and I asked the Holy Spirit to fight this food poisoning immediately. Amazingly, Dad.. the Holy Spirit fought the food poisoning immediately and the high fever broke right after the prayer. Still felt a little feverish and I took the last panadols to bring down the fever and slept through the night.
The next morning, the fever had gone leaving remnants of the food poisoning (i.e. rumbling stomach and solid state green bowels).. Still feeling the tiredness and boy.. my mom did got on my nerves. Though I snapped at her in church, I didn't feel much pain except to feel annoyed by her nonsense... Anyway, thank God that my grumpiness didn't last long and things went back normal after the service.. :P
Without any appetite for food and feeling nauseous, my stomach sure enjoyed the gummies!! Had so much of the gummies that I felt so happy after that.. lol.. anyway, sugars are meant to make you happy esp when your stomach is so upset.. :P Quite a way to cheer it up..
After the whole day in church, I decided to see the doctor for medications to restore the good bacteria in my tummy and I was given 2 days mc which I was like yay!! i can sleep more for the 2 days and really rest.
In essence after the whole week, I saw how Daddy God had been protecting me from the dreaded food poisoning and how He sustained me throughout the entire week to enjoy worshipping Him. This seemed to be like a warfare but the only thing in my head tells me is, I don't give a hoot to what the devil is trying to do on me. My God protects me with His shield, His Sword will just kill any evil that's trying to harm me, His Love will simply embrace me totally - like a child carried in His arms.
Thank You Dad for everything that through Lord Jesus Christ who died for me and sending the Holy Spirit to be my protector, healer, teacher, guidance and everything. In Jesus name, amen. =)
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Bless the Lord in ---> EVERYTHING
Psalm 103
As we are familiar with this Psalm, "Bless the Lord, O my soul and all that is within me, bless His Holy Name.", I always had this problem of blessing the Lord back in everything. My mind is now having only the head knowledge but not the revelation of this Psalm.
However, it is never about me blessing the Lord. It's about how Dad blesses us in everything. He blesses us first, and in turn, He'll change our hearts to see His Goodness. It's not about feelings or sensations. It is a parched dry ground for me right now but I still believe that Dad has a greater blessing for me.
My eyes are not able to see the goodness of the Lord now,
My ears are not able to hear the goodness of the Lord now.
But the Lord will never stop His goodness from flowing into my life.
Dad, I can't rely on senses and feelings but to trust in You, that You are blessing my life and my family. I do not know what is happening right now, but I just rest in this stillness and wait for You. Even if I laze around at this moment, I guess it's a moment of rest for me AND to stop running/ barging aimlessly. It's a time for me to stop, wait for You to take over me. You will overtake my life and in this stillness, I'll rest under Your shades.
Dad,
Under Your wings, I seek refuge.
On Your Shoulders, You set me on high.
You lift me up and soar like an eagle.
An eaglet I am right now,
Waiting to be pushed beyond the cliff of impossibles.
And there, Your Wind will lift me higher
To the greater heights of impossibilities.
Holy Spirit, thank You for
healing me,
building me,
strengthening me,
molding me,
protecting me,
leading me, and
teaching me,
according to the Word of God.
Lord Jesus,
I see You as my Lord, not as a Rabbi. I want to worship You. You are my only Friend whom I can talk to, pour out my heart to, and You will always listen to my heart. Lord Jesus, thank You for loving me. Thank You for blessing me, for embracing me, for protecting me. Thank You for everything and making a "simple me". I love You, Lord Jesus.
As we are familiar with this Psalm, "Bless the Lord, O my soul and all that is within me, bless His Holy Name.", I always had this problem of blessing the Lord back in everything. My mind is now having only the head knowledge but not the revelation of this Psalm.
However, it is never about me blessing the Lord. It's about how Dad blesses us in everything. He blesses us first, and in turn, He'll change our hearts to see His Goodness. It's not about feelings or sensations. It is a parched dry ground for me right now but I still believe that Dad has a greater blessing for me.
My eyes are not able to see the goodness of the Lord now,
My ears are not able to hear the goodness of the Lord now.
But the Lord will never stop His goodness from flowing into my life.
Dad, I can't rely on senses and feelings but to trust in You, that You are blessing my life and my family. I do not know what is happening right now, but I just rest in this stillness and wait for You. Even if I laze around at this moment, I guess it's a moment of rest for me AND to stop running/ barging aimlessly. It's a time for me to stop, wait for You to take over me. You will overtake my life and in this stillness, I'll rest under Your shades.
Dad,
Under Your wings, I seek refuge.
On Your Shoulders, You set me on high.
You lift me up and soar like an eagle.
An eaglet I am right now,
Waiting to be pushed beyond the cliff of impossibles.
And there, Your Wind will lift me higher
To the greater heights of impossibilities.
Holy Spirit, thank You for
healing me,
building me,
strengthening me,
molding me,
protecting me,
leading me, and
teaching me,
according to the Word of God.
Lord Jesus,
I see You as my Lord, not as a Rabbi. I want to worship You. You are my only Friend whom I can talk to, pour out my heart to, and You will always listen to my heart. Lord Jesus, thank You for loving me. Thank You for blessing me, for embracing me, for protecting me. Thank You for everything and making a "simple me". I love You, Lord Jesus.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Heaviness
Two days passed after the last conference (engaging the revelatory realm), my mind was just filled with mixed thoughts after that. The conference had changed me further - better? I have no idea. As I journey on to seek the Lord, I just stay where I am right now - be still - and think of nothing else. The night of ministering by Ps Steve Chua had given me a means of stepping forward to something more, i pray.
my heart was kindda numb and yet heavy on the innermost. Been keeping my tots away from negativity and focus in Lord Jesus. Somehow i'm stifling something and refused to let go. My heart seemed to be sobbing real hard but no tears flowed.
Lord, what's going on inside? I don't understand. My mouth couldn't open to say anything or utter anything. My mind is refusing to open my mouth.
Lord Jesus, You are my Pain Killer - emotionally, physically and mentally. I don't know what to do anymore. I give up.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Expectations out of the coming conference - Dr James Goll
Just another day to go to the start of another conference - Engaging the revelatory realm (by Dr James Goll). Had been waiting for this day to arrive and not exactly sure what to expect out of this conference yet. Probably the 2nd day will be much clearer.
Dad, I know not what to expect out of this conference, but I do know that You have something in store for me out of this conference. I just want to remain in Your Presence throughout the entire conference and also to discern Your Ways for me in this new phase in life.
Holy Spirit, fill my 3 days with the Presence of God and show me the Ways. You shall lead me and guide my heart. I'm going for this conference with expectations of receiving from the Lord and guide my heart in every part of the conference itself.
Thank You Lord Jesus for this conference. I wanna see more of You.
Dad, I know not what to expect out of this conference, but I do know that You have something in store for me out of this conference. I just want to remain in Your Presence throughout the entire conference and also to discern Your Ways for me in this new phase in life.
Holy Spirit, fill my 3 days with the Presence of God and show me the Ways. You shall lead me and guide my heart. I'm going for this conference with expectations of receiving from the Lord and guide my heart in every part of the conference itself.
Thank You Lord Jesus for this conference. I wanna see more of You.
Friday, May 10, 2013
Evening session @ 3 nites of glory
it's the 2nd night at the conference - 3 nights of glory by joshua mills. the experience is interesting on the 1st night where gold dusts can be seen on my palms when Joshua Mills told us to lift up our hands into the holy presence.
all of us were amazed and i was fascinated by the sparkles on my palm.. for a moment i was thinking if it's my sweaty palm..
it's 2nd night and i've made a prayer. And i also want to see more of the gold dusts.. if possible, gemstones too (since it had been recorded in Youtube)?
i do have some expectations tonite and i pray that i can see these expectations.
Daddy, settle my heart, okie?
Thursday, May 09, 2013
Reviving this blog and re-living new moments with Daddy..
It's been ages and I've long forgotten this blog site until early May 2013. I started to read all the past blogs and remembered the days with Daddy. I missed those days and wanted them back once again. It had been a long plunge from high grounds and it takes time to recover from the plunge. Slowly and steady, Daddy will lead me home - to the highest grounds.
Whether I'm discerning correctly or not, it doesn't matter to me anymore. It's a one-step per day and allowing Daddy to hold me and carry me.
Daddy, I missed Your Presence. I want to feel Your Presence again. Where You are leading me, I know not. Whether my prayers are answered, I know not either. I've lost numerous and is this the life You have for me?
I want to start everything in life all over again and this time, You take the lead. At this moment, I just want You to embrace me, that's all..
Time to revive this blog page and this whole blog is dedicated to You alone, Daddy. Each post is going to be an account of all the blessings and encounters with You.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Count My Blessings
Many times I wonder how faithful or rather how real Lord Jesus is. Was it because my faith in Jesus became weak? Or was it that I have started to lose hope in Him who exists? Or was it due to my missing of my dad?
Most of the time when I'm alone, I felt that a large part of me is missing. And that missing part is always related to my dad. I'm truly amazed with my mom who took it well. Guess after all her years of enduring my dad? Or perhaps it's really the Lord who gave her the ultimate strength? I missed sms-ing him with messages to tell him I love him, to tell him that I'll buy dinner for him, to share with him about my day, etc.. I missed listening to his stories of his younger days. Or rather I missed arguing with him..
The problem of being too close to someone tends to make our hearts yearn for the person's presence once again after he/she has left on a new journey. But if one is not being close to our own family member, it feels like as though we have not done our part as son/daughter to love the other person when he/she is still with us. No doubt that my dad has gone on his new adventure, many times I wonder where he is, how's he doing, what's he doing, and main thing is he really still alive spiritually? I won't know the answer till I go back to Heaven. If I don't see him there, can I ask Daddy God for my dad to be with me in Heaven? There are so many questions that will be left unanswered until I'm home with Jesus.
I remember having played a game with my friend and one of the questions asked "If there is a wall, what way will I use to go over to the other side of the wall?" Well, my answer is walking to the end of the wall and then turn to the other side. But, how far is it to the end of the wall? I visualised an extreme long journey to the end of the wall (juz like the Great Wall of China?).
It's just a picture to indicate how long it'll take me to get over to the other side of the wall.. Perhaps a very long time in which I've no idea.. Sometimes, I also wonder why love can be so painful to such extent? I was also wondering why was it that I'm always the last person to know of some things that happened at home? How very unfair! However, I still want to thank God that everything is peaceful and nothing bad will happen anymore, as all of us are already in Christ (including my sis-in-law and brother). That is to say, the entire Yeow family is saved.
Each time when I started to fade and lose hope, I started to count my blessings that Daddy God had graciously granted to me.
Blessing #1 - a wonderful dad and mom who strived so hard as one flesh, to bring up both my brother and I,
Blessing #2 - a wonderful sis-in-law whom I can really teased and shared my heart with,
Blessing #3 - two wonderful kids at home to keep my mom occupied and also to bring fun and laughter in the family,
Blessing #4 - never to forget my 2 lovable friends who had been with me throughout this time, having to endure my grouchiness.. Praise Jesus for them..
Blessing #5 - a job to keep my mind busy,
Blessing #6 - a close friend who has also been keeping me in her prayer,
Blessing #7 - able to breathe every second,
Blessing #8 - able to walk, run, jump,
Blessing #9 - able to listen to sermons, music, voices, noises, etc,
Blessing #10 - able to have time with my mom,
Blessing #11 - able to feel, taste, and smell,
Blessing #12 - very important, having Lord Jesus as my Ultimate Savior and Friend,
Blessing #13 - able to serve in church,
Blessing #14 - have the chance to read the bible and know more about Lord Jesus,
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The list of blessings can never end coz our Father in Heaven never ceases to love us with His Love, to shower us with His tender loving care and kindness, to grant us with His favour every day, to bless us with His abundant blessings, etc..
Daddy God, despite of my doubts about your existence, You still love me as who I am, and what I am. You do not see me in my own self being, but You see me in Christ Jesus. That His Blood had washed me completely of all my sins, that He died my death, that He took all the punishments that were meant for me, that He bore all the sicknesses that were meant for me, all the curses that He took on my behalf. Daddy God, nothing of myself is worthy of Your attention but You took time to pay attention to my needs and my calls for You. You love me so much that You won't want to see me cry. You have been containing all my tears in Your Tear-Bottle and You will never let a single drop of my tears to waste. Lord Jesus, I just don't know what to do but to depend on You. I've no choice but to cast all my cares, all my pains, all my worries, all my problems to You. I don't know how to deal with issues in life but You know how to resolve every single one of them for me. I don't know how, I don't know when but I do know You can and You will solve everything for me and my family. Lord Jesus, unto You, I cast everything for Your attention and Your action. Thank You Jesus. I don't care how You do it, I just know You will solve them for me. You know what they are and I don't need to spell out every single one of them. Daddy God, as Jesus is in Heaven right now, so am I on earth. He is my Righteousness, my Understanding, my Wisdom, my Provider, my Healer and literally my Everything. There's nothing I can hold in my hands, and You can hold them all in Your Mighty Hands. Who can go against You, who is the Almighty One? Daddy God, unto You, my soul, body and mind rest. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen..
Most of the time when I'm alone, I felt that a large part of me is missing. And that missing part is always related to my dad. I'm truly amazed with my mom who took it well. Guess after all her years of enduring my dad? Or perhaps it's really the Lord who gave her the ultimate strength? I missed sms-ing him with messages to tell him I love him, to tell him that I'll buy dinner for him, to share with him about my day, etc.. I missed listening to his stories of his younger days. Or rather I missed arguing with him..
The problem of being too close to someone tends to make our hearts yearn for the person's presence once again after he/she has left on a new journey. But if one is not being close to our own family member, it feels like as though we have not done our part as son/daughter to love the other person when he/she is still with us. No doubt that my dad has gone on his new adventure, many times I wonder where he is, how's he doing, what's he doing, and main thing is he really still alive spiritually? I won't know the answer till I go back to Heaven. If I don't see him there, can I ask Daddy God for my dad to be with me in Heaven? There are so many questions that will be left unanswered until I'm home with Jesus.
I remember having played a game with my friend and one of the questions asked "If there is a wall, what way will I use to go over to the other side of the wall?" Well, my answer is walking to the end of the wall and then turn to the other side. But, how far is it to the end of the wall? I visualised an extreme long journey to the end of the wall (juz like the Great Wall of China?).
It's just a picture to indicate how long it'll take me to get over to the other side of the wall.. Perhaps a very long time in which I've no idea.. Sometimes, I also wonder why love can be so painful to such extent? I was also wondering why was it that I'm always the last person to know of some things that happened at home? How very unfair! However, I still want to thank God that everything is peaceful and nothing bad will happen anymore, as all of us are already in Christ (including my sis-in-law and brother). That is to say, the entire Yeow family is saved.
Each time when I started to fade and lose hope, I started to count my blessings that Daddy God had graciously granted to me.
Blessing #1 - a wonderful dad and mom who strived so hard as one flesh, to bring up both my brother and I,
Blessing #2 - a wonderful sis-in-law whom I can really teased and shared my heart with,
Blessing #3 - two wonderful kids at home to keep my mom occupied and also to bring fun and laughter in the family,
Blessing #4 - never to forget my 2 lovable friends who had been with me throughout this time, having to endure my grouchiness.. Praise Jesus for them..
Blessing #5 - a job to keep my mind busy,
Blessing #6 - a close friend who has also been keeping me in her prayer,
Blessing #7 - able to breathe every second,
Blessing #8 - able to walk, run, jump,
Blessing #9 - able to listen to sermons, music, voices, noises, etc,
Blessing #10 - able to have time with my mom,
Blessing #11 - able to feel, taste, and smell,
Blessing #12 - very important, having Lord Jesus as my Ultimate Savior and Friend,
Blessing #13 - able to serve in church,
Blessing #14 - have the chance to read the bible and know more about Lord Jesus,
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The list of blessings can never end coz our Father in Heaven never ceases to love us with His Love, to shower us with His tender loving care and kindness, to grant us with His favour every day, to bless us with His abundant blessings, etc..
Daddy God, despite of my doubts about your existence, You still love me as who I am, and what I am. You do not see me in my own self being, but You see me in Christ Jesus. That His Blood had washed me completely of all my sins, that He died my death, that He took all the punishments that were meant for me, that He bore all the sicknesses that were meant for me, all the curses that He took on my behalf. Daddy God, nothing of myself is worthy of Your attention but You took time to pay attention to my needs and my calls for You. You love me so much that You won't want to see me cry. You have been containing all my tears in Your Tear-Bottle and You will never let a single drop of my tears to waste. Lord Jesus, I just don't know what to do but to depend on You. I've no choice but to cast all my cares, all my pains, all my worries, all my problems to You. I don't know how to deal with issues in life but You know how to resolve every single one of them for me. I don't know how, I don't know when but I do know You can and You will solve everything for me and my family. Lord Jesus, unto You, I cast everything for Your attention and Your action. Thank You Jesus. I don't care how You do it, I just know You will solve them for me. You know what they are and I don't need to spell out every single one of them. Daddy God, as Jesus is in Heaven right now, so am I on earth. He is my Righteousness, my Understanding, my Wisdom, my Provider, my Healer and literally my Everything. There's nothing I can hold in my hands, and You can hold them all in Your Mighty Hands. Who can go against You, who is the Almighty One? Daddy God, unto You, my soul, body and mind rest. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen..
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Fun time @ church function
Wow... I thank Daddy God for such a fun time at my church's Ministry of Helps function nite.. There has never been a day that I will feel bored ever since I entered this church. Initially, I thought that I won't be able to make it for the function coz of my "bad" flu that caused me to have throat infection and high fever for the past few days. Praise Jesus that one of my friends called me last night and we were on the phone for nearly an hr. Right after the conversation, I noticed that my throat wasn't as painful as it was earlier in the day.
Indeed, I've received my healing and I'm continuing to receive total healing from this dreaded flu. Well, whatever it is, I'm still able to make it for the function. It was a nite of total fun and laughter. Truly praise Jesus for making this possible for me.
Well.. there was a song which Deacon Jeffrey sang at the last section of the function that helped me see Jesus again. I felt so weak throughout the week and after listening to this, He is my Strength.. It's a song by Steve Curtis Chapman..
His Strength is Perfect
I can do all things,
Through Christ who gives me strength,
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me.
No great success to show
No glory on my own
Yet in my weakness
He is there to let me know
His Strength is perfect,
When our strength is gone.
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His Power, the weak becomes strong
His Strength is perfect
His Strength is perfect
We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His Strength in us begins
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again
A beautiful song and it melts my heart right there and then.. Jesus is my Strength.. Many people told me to be strong for my mom after my dad passed away.. Many times, I told the Lord that I can't and don't even know how to be strong.. I'm felt so weak and tired and just can't find the strength at times.. This song just cuts right into my heart now as I start to think more about His Love for me and His Strength in me.
Now I know that it's Jesus telling me that "Darling.. My Strength is perfect. Just rest in my bosoms and I will carry you all the way. I'm putting you on my Shoulders and I'm carrying you all the way."
Lord Jesus, I want to thank You that You are my Strength. You are my Comforter. I have no idea how to move on with life without You, Lord. It is You who gave me the Strength that I need. You are the One to show me the Way. You are the One who can direct every footstep that I take. Lord, I thank You that You are ALIVE. Thank you for loving me and my entire family. I'm so blessed, so favoured and so loved by You. Thank You Lord Jesus.. And because of Your Love, my entire family is already saved including my sis-in-law. I thank You that my sis-in-law's entire family are also saved! :D In Your Most Wonderful, Mighty Name, I pray. Amen!
Indeed, I've received my healing and I'm continuing to receive total healing from this dreaded flu. Well, whatever it is, I'm still able to make it for the function. It was a nite of total fun and laughter. Truly praise Jesus for making this possible for me.
Well.. there was a song which Deacon Jeffrey sang at the last section of the function that helped me see Jesus again. I felt so weak throughout the week and after listening to this, He is my Strength.. It's a song by Steve Curtis Chapman..
His Strength is Perfect
I can do all things,
Through Christ who gives me strength,
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me.
No great success to show
No glory on my own
Yet in my weakness
He is there to let me know
His Strength is perfect,
When our strength is gone.
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His Power, the weak becomes strong
His Strength is perfect
His Strength is perfect
We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His Strength in us begins
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again
A beautiful song and it melts my heart right there and then.. Jesus is my Strength.. Many people told me to be strong for my mom after my dad passed away.. Many times, I told the Lord that I can't and don't even know how to be strong.. I'm felt so weak and tired and just can't find the strength at times.. This song just cuts right into my heart now as I start to think more about His Love for me and His Strength in me.
Now I know that it's Jesus telling me that "Darling.. My Strength is perfect. Just rest in my bosoms and I will carry you all the way. I'm putting you on my Shoulders and I'm carrying you all the way."
Lord Jesus, I want to thank You that You are my Strength. You are my Comforter. I have no idea how to move on with life without You, Lord. It is You who gave me the Strength that I need. You are the One to show me the Way. You are the One who can direct every footstep that I take. Lord, I thank You that You are ALIVE. Thank you for loving me and my entire family. I'm so blessed, so favoured and so loved by You. Thank You Lord Jesus.. And because of Your Love, my entire family is already saved including my sis-in-law. I thank You that my sis-in-law's entire family are also saved! :D In Your Most Wonderful, Mighty Name, I pray. Amen!
Monday, October 24, 2005
Faith comes by hearing and hearing alone
To what extent that faith comes by? Previously, I used to think that as long as we speak forth the Word of God, faith will come automatically. It was pretty interesting when my church pastor pointed out the scriptural verses to show us that faith actually comes by hearing and hearing alone - Romans 10:17
Many times, we tend to misplace faith to our own self-effort that we must do something to have faith. However it's not. It's only by the hearing the Word of God that faith will be stirred up within our hearts. When faith was being stirred up, we tend to speak forth thanksgiving to our Lord Jesus. Sometimes even when faith wasn't stirred up in our hearts, just listening to the sermons also brings forth blessings.
I never understood how listening to the Word of God can actually help me solve the problems until today. I had been fretting over some work and subconsciously, I ended up listening to sermons again. Praise be to Jesus that help came very fast. Initially I was having a lot of problems understanding a new programming language. And thank God that He sent my colleague to help me. My colleague ended up writing the entire program. :P and I've managed to learn some interesting stuffs.
I didn't realise it until much later when I reached home. Well.. the only thing I knew was that my inner being was being fed with the Word and I had no idea how the problems can actually be resolved.. Whatever it is, I still thank Daddy God for sending help.. :D
okie.. time to buzz off for another few days or rather weeks, I guess..
Many times, we tend to misplace faith to our own self-effort that we must do something to have faith. However it's not. It's only by the hearing the Word of God that faith will be stirred up within our hearts. When faith was being stirred up, we tend to speak forth thanksgiving to our Lord Jesus. Sometimes even when faith wasn't stirred up in our hearts, just listening to the sermons also brings forth blessings.
I never understood how listening to the Word of God can actually help me solve the problems until today. I had been fretting over some work and subconsciously, I ended up listening to sermons again. Praise be to Jesus that help came very fast. Initially I was having a lot of problems understanding a new programming language. And thank God that He sent my colleague to help me. My colleague ended up writing the entire program. :P and I've managed to learn some interesting stuffs.
I didn't realise it until much later when I reached home. Well.. the only thing I knew was that my inner being was being fed with the Word and I had no idea how the problems can actually be resolved.. Whatever it is, I still thank Daddy God for sending help.. :D
okie.. time to buzz off for another few days or rather weeks, I guess..
Monday, October 10, 2005
To my most beloved daddy..
Days have come and gone,
Our hearts are still as one,
A moment of this time that,
I see you not with my eyes.
The eyes of my heart see you,
Happy and Perfect,
Joyful and Peaceful,
All days in Heaven with Jesus.
You may have departed,
It's only for a time being.
Nothing can tear us apart,
Not even death.
No matter what you have done,
I still love you very deeply.
You are my most beloved daddy,
and I thank God for you.
I long to see you,
To listen to your soothing voice,
To be with you,
All the days of my life.
Tears may flow,
Heart may sorrow,
But my spirit is lifted,
Coz you still alive.
You are in every beat of my heart,
You are in every step that I take.
You are in every thoughts that I make,
You are in every words that I speak.
And most importantly,
You are still alive, and
You are in Heaven now.
Till the time comes,
We will definitely meet again.
For this is the promise of
our Heavenly Father and Lord Jesus.
Amen..
Our hearts are still as one,
A moment of this time that,
I see you not with my eyes.
The eyes of my heart see you,
Happy and Perfect,
Joyful and Peaceful,
All days in Heaven with Jesus.
You may have departed,
It's only for a time being.
Nothing can tear us apart,
Not even death.
No matter what you have done,
I still love you very deeply.
You are my most beloved daddy,
and I thank God for you.
I long to see you,
To listen to your soothing voice,
To be with you,
All the days of my life.
Tears may flow,
Heart may sorrow,
But my spirit is lifted,
Coz you still alive.
You are in every beat of my heart,
You are in every step that I take.
You are in every thoughts that I make,
You are in every words that I speak.
And most importantly,
You are still alive, and
You are in Heaven now.
Till the time comes,
We will definitely meet again.
For this is the promise of
our Heavenly Father and Lord Jesus.
Amen..
Sunday, October 09, 2005
5 loaves and 2 fishes
Many days have passed and it's been three weeks, almost four weeks that my entire family's life and mine were changed. I thank Daddy God for His Comfort that He had given to me in my life and my family and also for every little things. I remember telling my friends before I came into New Creation Church was that, if we learn how to give thanks to Daddy God for small little things in our lives, how much more He will give us bigger things to us. And I suddenly recalled telling this to many of my friends before after listening to Pastor Prince's sermons today.
Daddy God, I thank you for my dad and my mom whom you have put them together all these years in my life, despite the evil efforts of destructions from the fallen one. I thank You even more that my dad's soul is now in your bosom and he's happy in Heaven which is called HOME to us all. Your Love for me is always there, even when I don't even deserve any. Your Grace surpasses all things and truly, You are my everything, Lord Jesus. And all these I give thanks to the Father, and Lord Jesus! Amen!
Wah!! mom's snoring liao. hahaha.. well, I thank Daddy God for a peaceful rest for her and my entire family.
Oh yah.. before I forget.. now back to the 5 loaves and 2 fishes.. When Pastor Prince was sharing about this verse and he's talking about thanksgiving. Interestingly the Holy Spirit showed me the hidden Grace Covenant! Hahaha.. 5 speaks of grace and 2 speaks of covenant. So fun!! There's a hidden grace covenant in this and Jesus was giving thanks to the Father, not only for the loaves and the fish.. Also for the Grace of the Father on everyone of us. His passion for us is so great that nothing can compare to it.
Gee.. dun know whether I'm on the right track or not. But anyway, this was in my thoughts during the sermons. hee..
okie.. time to sleep.. May all of u have a blessed week ahead!! A week full of joy and peace.. SHALOM!!
Daddy God, I thank you for my dad and my mom whom you have put them together all these years in my life, despite the evil efforts of destructions from the fallen one. I thank You even more that my dad's soul is now in your bosom and he's happy in Heaven which is called HOME to us all. Your Love for me is always there, even when I don't even deserve any. Your Grace surpasses all things and truly, You are my everything, Lord Jesus. And all these I give thanks to the Father, and Lord Jesus! Amen!
Wah!! mom's snoring liao. hahaha.. well, I thank Daddy God for a peaceful rest for her and my entire family.
Oh yah.. before I forget.. now back to the 5 loaves and 2 fishes.. When Pastor Prince was sharing about this verse and he's talking about thanksgiving. Interestingly the Holy Spirit showed me the hidden Grace Covenant! Hahaha.. 5 speaks of grace and 2 speaks of covenant. So fun!! There's a hidden grace covenant in this and Jesus was giving thanks to the Father, not only for the loaves and the fish.. Also for the Grace of the Father on everyone of us. His passion for us is so great that nothing can compare to it.
Gee.. dun know whether I'm on the right track or not. But anyway, this was in my thoughts during the sermons. hee..
okie.. time to sleep.. May all of u have a blessed week ahead!! A week full of joy and peace.. SHALOM!!
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Symbolical representation of numbers
This is something that amazes me in some ways.. I pray that I'm not too paranoid into figures.. Well, lately there had been several instances when the number 4 was impressing very deeply in my heart until recently. I didn't understand the reason and well, I guess it's the Holy Spirit who prompted me into deep thoughts..
The number 4 is a number which many Chinese people detest very much. Recently, I got to understand the symbolical representation of this number which represents the 4 corners of the earth as well as the 4 corners of the cross.
The stupid egg (ie that darn no-air-time devil) has been putting a lot of superstitious thinkings into the minds of most Chinese people that it's a very inauspicious number and it brings forth death. Well.. indeed.. It also sounds like death when you read it out in Chinese or in any Chinese dialects.
However, the Holy Spirit showed me that 4 is the representation of the cross. It is on the cross that Jesus was cruxified on. It was where Jesus died on. He was hung on the cross. And this is where Jesus had conquered death for all of us!! See!!! The stupid egg doesn't want us to believe in Jesus who died for all of us and it puts superstitious thoughts into the minds of people who were created by our Creator, our Lord Jesus Himself. The stupid egg is trying to pull us away from the Creator Himself.
And most Chinese people tend to put the traditions and the laws into their lives. This gives the darn egg the open door to wreck havoc in our lives. But PRAISE BE TO JESUS!! He conquered all deaths and He HIMSELF brought everyone of us back to His side for eternity. The devil has no more power over death. He can only wreck havoc into our lives by putting in all the false doctrines, the law, and lies, to make our hearts fail. The devil simply has NO MORE power! He's now like a wimp that goes around to roar like a sick lion.
Ok.. no more air time for that darn egg.. I have only time for our Lord Jesus and He's the only One who deserves all our air time! Praise Jesus for His Grace towards us is so super-abundant exceedingly great (which means INFINITY!). There's no limit to His Grace for all of us. The only thing we just need to do is to REST and He will do all things for us.
He had redeemed us from sweat, stress, sicknesses, diseases, curses, disasters, sorrows, pains and every bad things. He took them upon Himself and He exchanged all of His blessings and goodness and gave them to everyone of us.
The only thing I have to say is I urge those who are still not believing in Jesus to believe Him. Your heart just need to say out, Lord Jesus, I need You and You are my Lord and Savior. He hears you, He reads your heart. He's the Creator of all mankind, in the likeness of Himself. So, what makes one think that He cannot read our hearts? :P He loves everyone and He will never forsake anyone on earth and will never allow any soul to depart from Him coz all of us belong to HIM and HIM ALONE..
Amen..
The number 4 is a number which many Chinese people detest very much. Recently, I got to understand the symbolical representation of this number which represents the 4 corners of the earth as well as the 4 corners of the cross.
The stupid egg (ie that darn no-air-time devil) has been putting a lot of superstitious thinkings into the minds of most Chinese people that it's a very inauspicious number and it brings forth death. Well.. indeed.. It also sounds like death when you read it out in Chinese or in any Chinese dialects.
However, the Holy Spirit showed me that 4 is the representation of the cross. It is on the cross that Jesus was cruxified on. It was where Jesus died on. He was hung on the cross. And this is where Jesus had conquered death for all of us!! See!!! The stupid egg doesn't want us to believe in Jesus who died for all of us and it puts superstitious thoughts into the minds of people who were created by our Creator, our Lord Jesus Himself. The stupid egg is trying to pull us away from the Creator Himself.
And most Chinese people tend to put the traditions and the laws into their lives. This gives the darn egg the open door to wreck havoc in our lives. But PRAISE BE TO JESUS!! He conquered all deaths and He HIMSELF brought everyone of us back to His side for eternity. The devil has no more power over death. He can only wreck havoc into our lives by putting in all the false doctrines, the law, and lies, to make our hearts fail. The devil simply has NO MORE power! He's now like a wimp that goes around to roar like a sick lion.
Ok.. no more air time for that darn egg.. I have only time for our Lord Jesus and He's the only One who deserves all our air time! Praise Jesus for His Grace towards us is so super-abundant exceedingly great (which means INFINITY!). There's no limit to His Grace for all of us. The only thing we just need to do is to REST and He will do all things for us.
He had redeemed us from sweat, stress, sicknesses, diseases, curses, disasters, sorrows, pains and every bad things. He took them upon Himself and He exchanged all of His blessings and goodness and gave them to everyone of us.
The only thing I have to say is I urge those who are still not believing in Jesus to believe Him. Your heart just need to say out, Lord Jesus, I need You and You are my Lord and Savior. He hears you, He reads your heart. He's the Creator of all mankind, in the likeness of Himself. So, what makes one think that He cannot read our hearts? :P He loves everyone and He will never forsake anyone on earth and will never allow any soul to depart from Him coz all of us belong to HIM and HIM ALONE..
Amen..
Friday, September 23, 2005
The Infinite Amount of Love from God
I know I've went missing for quite a while now.. I have a lot of things to say this time and looks like it'll take some time. The first thing I want to say is that ALL GLORY AND PRAISES TO JESUS CHRIST!!
Well.. U muz be wondering how come like that? I can say is that most of us are unable to really understand that kind of love that Daddy God has for us all the time. I haven't understood it until lately. My dad just passed away on 14th Sept 2005. He was playing a good game of golf and he suddenly collapsed on Hole 12. And he passed away on the way to the hospital. When I received the news, I was amazed that my heart was pretty peaceful and calm over it. Only when the undertaker came knocking at my home, I was breaking down but still very peaceful in my heart.
I didn't know why but I just want to trust in the Lord that my daddy is fine. I was totally confused and didn't know what to do as my dad died in Malaysia and not in Singapore. I had no choice but to seek help and I've never expected anything out of anything. I didn't know what to do at all. But Daddy God knew my difficulties and He had arranged everything for me and my family. From the point of embracing my daddy back home to Himself and to Heaven, bringing his body back home to Singapore until the cremation of his body, and even how Daddy God has really finished everything for me and my family.
At the very moment when I received the news, I had no one to ask but to go home and wait for my brother to go home and help out. He's the only one whom I thought that he can do everything this time.. Anyway, my brother is also very capable in my eyes. Well, Daddy God placed a dear friend's name into my mind and told me to call her. So, I called her and told her about the news. I didn't expect her to do anything at all. However, out of her were total grace and love that she started to do some arrangements and told me to be calm and wait for her so that she can bring me and my family into Malaysia.
She sacrificed her work and time to help me.. I really thank Daddy God for a great friend like her and also loads of friends, colleagues, dad's friends, etc whom I really have to thank Daddy God for. I now thank Daddy God for super-exceeding abundant blessings upon them who stood by me, throughout the temporary moment of loss. They are a true blessings to me and no amount of money can replace them at all, for they are so precious to me.. For those who are praying for me or not praying, or just reading, I thank Daddy God for the super-abundant blessings to be upon all of you oso.
Ok.. when my friend came to my house together with another lady from my church's funeral help ministry, I was so comforted coz I know that it's Daddy God who had arranged for them to be around to help me. I thank God that they sacrificed their own time so much to help me and the main thing is that none of them were paid by the church for their services in the ministry that they are serving. I'm truly touched by their sincerity and helps. This is really God's love coming out from them all. Prior to entering Malaysia, my brother and I had to get a lot of medical reports from doctors whom my dad had visited for his medical history. Praise God that we got the necessary reports within the time-frame of 2 hrs while waiting for my dear friends. Right after that, we went into J.B. and headed on to the hospital. When we reached there, I saw my dad's friends and I totally broke down. They comforted my mom, brother and I. They told us that my dad received his salvation in Jesus Christ. All of his friends there are Christians. They are his closest friends and they knew much more about my daddy.
I'm totally amazed about this coz they are his closest friends who had been ministering to him all the time when he's alive. My entire family and his friends also prayed for my daddy and we shared the gospel to him all the time when he's alive. In our hearts, everyone of us had the peace that he is already in Heaven, enjoying himself with Jesus and Daddy God, in the embracing Arms of our Beloved God.
Throughout the entire wake and the funeral, there had been so many friends and relatives around us who gave their time for us and stayed around with me and my family. I truly appreciated every one of their kindness. During the service which my pastor gave, we felt the ultimate peace in our hearts and my mom regained her strength. She said that she saw a cloud of Glory covering my dad's coffin and his picture. It was super amazing! And both of us actually had the same vision at one point of the service that we saw my dad's biggest smile. It was there and then, we knew in our hearts that he is safe and happy. More confirmations came when my mom and my sis-in-law told me that my dad was listening to a sermon once, in which I knew my dad doesn't do so in our presence esp when I'm around. :P
And right after that, one of my dear friend wrote in her blog Romans 5:5. And my heart just simply lifted off again! I remembered during the entire moment, i heard the Holy Spirit ever posed me questions whenever I started to doubt. He asked if I believed. And I told Him, YES. I believe and believe that Daddy God is in control of all things.
After the funeral, my mom and I had a very long talk about my dad and she told me of all the events that happened prior to the day he passed away. I realised that Daddy God is truly in control of all the events such as, bringing his friends whom he has never seen for some time to chat with him, sending people to watch over him, etc.. There are so many small things that I really thank Daddy God for coz it's all these small things that are big to me.
Well.. right now, I don't know what else to do but to take one step at a time. Thank God also that He strengthened my mom's heart. In fact, I have nothing to say but to say a lot of thanks to Daddy God and Jesus. Without Jesus, I will be totally lost. Jesus, Jesus.. What can I do without You? You are my Vine, my Righteousness, my Friend, my Everything and most importantly, You are my GOD! My Lord and my Savior. Nothing can replace You. Thank You Jesus. Your Love is just simply infinite for me and my family. Truly, I cannot live without You, Jesus. You are my Life!
Ok, I'll stop here for the moment.. Time to fetch my nephew to school. Now I understood how much my dad had sacrificed his time and rest for his entire family. This makes me love him even more.. And also my Jesus and Daddy God.. Thank You Jesus. I love You, Jesus!!
Well.. U muz be wondering how come like that? I can say is that most of us are unable to really understand that kind of love that Daddy God has for us all the time. I haven't understood it until lately. My dad just passed away on 14th Sept 2005. He was playing a good game of golf and he suddenly collapsed on Hole 12. And he passed away on the way to the hospital. When I received the news, I was amazed that my heart was pretty peaceful and calm over it. Only when the undertaker came knocking at my home, I was breaking down but still very peaceful in my heart.
I didn't know why but I just want to trust in the Lord that my daddy is fine. I was totally confused and didn't know what to do as my dad died in Malaysia and not in Singapore. I had no choice but to seek help and I've never expected anything out of anything. I didn't know what to do at all. But Daddy God knew my difficulties and He had arranged everything for me and my family. From the point of embracing my daddy back home to Himself and to Heaven, bringing his body back home to Singapore until the cremation of his body, and even how Daddy God has really finished everything for me and my family.
At the very moment when I received the news, I had no one to ask but to go home and wait for my brother to go home and help out. He's the only one whom I thought that he can do everything this time.. Anyway, my brother is also very capable in my eyes. Well, Daddy God placed a dear friend's name into my mind and told me to call her. So, I called her and told her about the news. I didn't expect her to do anything at all. However, out of her were total grace and love that she started to do some arrangements and told me to be calm and wait for her so that she can bring me and my family into Malaysia.
She sacrificed her work and time to help me.. I really thank Daddy God for a great friend like her and also loads of friends, colleagues, dad's friends, etc whom I really have to thank Daddy God for. I now thank Daddy God for super-exceeding abundant blessings upon them who stood by me, throughout the temporary moment of loss. They are a true blessings to me and no amount of money can replace them at all, for they are so precious to me.. For those who are praying for me or not praying, or just reading, I thank Daddy God for the super-abundant blessings to be upon all of you oso.
Ok.. when my friend came to my house together with another lady from my church's funeral help ministry, I was so comforted coz I know that it's Daddy God who had arranged for them to be around to help me. I thank God that they sacrificed their own time so much to help me and the main thing is that none of them were paid by the church for their services in the ministry that they are serving. I'm truly touched by their sincerity and helps. This is really God's love coming out from them all. Prior to entering Malaysia, my brother and I had to get a lot of medical reports from doctors whom my dad had visited for his medical history. Praise God that we got the necessary reports within the time-frame of 2 hrs while waiting for my dear friends. Right after that, we went into J.B. and headed on to the hospital. When we reached there, I saw my dad's friends and I totally broke down. They comforted my mom, brother and I. They told us that my dad received his salvation in Jesus Christ. All of his friends there are Christians. They are his closest friends and they knew much more about my daddy.
I'm totally amazed about this coz they are his closest friends who had been ministering to him all the time when he's alive. My entire family and his friends also prayed for my daddy and we shared the gospel to him all the time when he's alive. In our hearts, everyone of us had the peace that he is already in Heaven, enjoying himself with Jesus and Daddy God, in the embracing Arms of our Beloved God.
Throughout the entire wake and the funeral, there had been so many friends and relatives around us who gave their time for us and stayed around with me and my family. I truly appreciated every one of their kindness. During the service which my pastor gave, we felt the ultimate peace in our hearts and my mom regained her strength. She said that she saw a cloud of Glory covering my dad's coffin and his picture. It was super amazing! And both of us actually had the same vision at one point of the service that we saw my dad's biggest smile. It was there and then, we knew in our hearts that he is safe and happy. More confirmations came when my mom and my sis-in-law told me that my dad was listening to a sermon once, in which I knew my dad doesn't do so in our presence esp when I'm around. :P
And right after that, one of my dear friend wrote in her blog Romans 5:5. And my heart just simply lifted off again! I remembered during the entire moment, i heard the Holy Spirit ever posed me questions whenever I started to doubt. He asked if I believed. And I told Him, YES. I believe and believe that Daddy God is in control of all things.
After the funeral, my mom and I had a very long talk about my dad and she told me of all the events that happened prior to the day he passed away. I realised that Daddy God is truly in control of all the events such as, bringing his friends whom he has never seen for some time to chat with him, sending people to watch over him, etc.. There are so many small things that I really thank Daddy God for coz it's all these small things that are big to me.
Well.. right now, I don't know what else to do but to take one step at a time. Thank God also that He strengthened my mom's heart. In fact, I have nothing to say but to say a lot of thanks to Daddy God and Jesus. Without Jesus, I will be totally lost. Jesus, Jesus.. What can I do without You? You are my Vine, my Righteousness, my Friend, my Everything and most importantly, You are my GOD! My Lord and my Savior. Nothing can replace You. Thank You Jesus. Your Love is just simply infinite for me and my family. Truly, I cannot live without You, Jesus. You are my Life!
Ok, I'll stop here for the moment.. Time to fetch my nephew to school. Now I understood how much my dad had sacrificed his time and rest for his entire family. This makes me love him even more.. And also my Jesus and Daddy God.. Thank You Jesus. I love You, Jesus!!
Sunday, September 11, 2005
March of the Penguins
Yesterday, I went out with my dear friend to watch the March of the Penguins. This documentary movie was very well-filmed. After watching the entire documentary, I think penguins are the only animal species that suffered the most during its mating season. What makes it interesting is that the penguins had their yearly dance in which both male and female penguins will dance with each other and eventually mate to have their offspring. Each pair of penguins can only have 1 chick at a time.
The entire documentary shows how the penguins came out of the water and marched in a single file to their mating destination which was very far away. Some of them didn't make it to their destination as they either wander off from the pack or are too old to carry on with the journey(though the documentary din explicitly mention that). After they have reached their destination, they started to look for their mate and most of them got their mates. Just as the natural instincts, male penguins will fight with each other for the female that they wanted to dance with.
After each pair of the penguins have found each other, they continued with their dance (ie their mating session). Right after that, they became very silent and waited for the time (coz the female penguins were being fertilised and the egg in each female penguin started to form). This entire process took 3 months. After 3 months, every female penguin will start to lay their egg and another dance started. This time, the egg will have to be passed on to the male penguin which will in turn look after the egg and warm the egg until it hatches. Some of the pairs didn't manage to pass the egg and the egg got frozen and that's the end of a life. Sad huh.. wait on.. Anyway, the male penguins were the most amazing ones here.
After the egg has been passed to the male penguins, the females will move out to look for a place where they can find food to replenish their bodies and also to bring back for the chicks to feed on. Right after the females moved off, the main scene was back to the father penguins. They have to stay on to look after the eggs for the next 4 months. During the 4 months, the males have to endure a lot of hardship, esp during the harsh winter climates and the low temperature plus wind. Interestingly, all the male penguins will gather together in an area so that heat can be regulated within. Sadly, there are some who cannot withstand the harshness of the environment and ended up having to sleep forever.
The worst part of the entire mating season is when the male penguins had to protect the eggs from cold and yet they have to suffer in the cold. All for the sake of just one egg.. which is one life.. After the 4 months were over, the chicks will start to pop out from their shells. They are still very vulnerable to the cold and they have to constantly hide in their daddys' pouch. At the same time, they waited for the mommy penguins to come back.
Well, some of the mommy penguins didn't make it back coz of the travelling to and fro the mating grounds. Some of them were also attacked by the predators. But majority made it back on time to feed their chicks. After they arrived at the mating ground, I'm very amazed that they can actually recognise their own family. Something which is really totally amazing. After the female penguins found their family, the father penguin will then pass the chick back to the mommy which will in turn, feed the chicks. There's always a lot of skills involved while passing the chicks from one parent to another. However, some of the chicks ended up frozen when the parents were unable to move them fast enough.
After the chicks were safely back in the mommy's pouch, the daddy penguin will have to set out to feed themselves. Otherwise, they will die of hunger. During their absence, the mommy penguins took over to look after their chicks. As time passes, the chicks grew bigger and stronger. Until their juvenile stage, the mothers allowed their chicks to gather as a group and play. At this time, the predators knew that it was time to strike for their food and some of the chicks ended up food to the predators.
During this while, the climate of the place was still very unpredictable. It so happened that there was another last round of extreme cold wind that took even more lives. Some of the chicks became victims of the harsh cold and died. At this time, the mommy penguins that lost their chicks became mad with grief and they became wild. They will try to snatch a chick from another mommy penguin so as to replace the dead chick. It was a very sad scene to see. The pain that the mommy penguin has to go through of losing its own chick. Gee.. I can't imagine how Daddy God will feel when He sees us suffering over here. Thank God that His Son Jesus, paid the price for us all that we don't have to suffer anymore or even face death.
ok. back to the penguins.. After 2 months, the father penguins came back to the family and amazingly again.. they were able to find their family through the voice of their chicks! This reminds me of this verse "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me. John 10:27" Cool..
Well.. this spells happy reunion of the entire family until the chicks were big enough to look after themselves and were also out of their weaning stage. At this time, the parents will move off and leave the chicks alone to explore. Pretty cute is that the chicks will gather together as one and they start to explore the world as one, just like a big family. From there, the entire cycle starts and the dance continues...
I simply love the way this documentary was being filmed. I would definitely encourage people to watch this documentary. Imagine the penguins have to face so much hardship to have just 1 chick. Imagine the same that our parents also went through having to bring us up.. I thank Daddy God for my parents. The only thing I want to see both of them holding hands and have a more abundant life and also my dad being saved.. :P
The entire documentary shows how the penguins came out of the water and marched in a single file to their mating destination which was very far away. Some of them didn't make it to their destination as they either wander off from the pack or are too old to carry on with the journey(though the documentary din explicitly mention that). After they have reached their destination, they started to look for their mate and most of them got their mates. Just as the natural instincts, male penguins will fight with each other for the female that they wanted to dance with.
After each pair of the penguins have found each other, they continued with their dance (ie their mating session). Right after that, they became very silent and waited for the time (coz the female penguins were being fertilised and the egg in each female penguin started to form). This entire process took 3 months. After 3 months, every female penguin will start to lay their egg and another dance started. This time, the egg will have to be passed on to the male penguin which will in turn look after the egg and warm the egg until it hatches. Some of the pairs didn't manage to pass the egg and the egg got frozen and that's the end of a life. Sad huh.. wait on.. Anyway, the male penguins were the most amazing ones here.
After the egg has been passed to the male penguins, the females will move out to look for a place where they can find food to replenish their bodies and also to bring back for the chicks to feed on. Right after the females moved off, the main scene was back to the father penguins. They have to stay on to look after the eggs for the next 4 months. During the 4 months, the males have to endure a lot of hardship, esp during the harsh winter climates and the low temperature plus wind. Interestingly, all the male penguins will gather together in an area so that heat can be regulated within. Sadly, there are some who cannot withstand the harshness of the environment and ended up having to sleep forever.
The worst part of the entire mating season is when the male penguins had to protect the eggs from cold and yet they have to suffer in the cold. All for the sake of just one egg.. which is one life.. After the 4 months were over, the chicks will start to pop out from their shells. They are still very vulnerable to the cold and they have to constantly hide in their daddys' pouch. At the same time, they waited for the mommy penguins to come back.
Well, some of the mommy penguins didn't make it back coz of the travelling to and fro the mating grounds. Some of them were also attacked by the predators. But majority made it back on time to feed their chicks. After they arrived at the mating ground, I'm very amazed that they can actually recognise their own family. Something which is really totally amazing. After the female penguins found their family, the father penguin will then pass the chick back to the mommy which will in turn, feed the chicks. There's always a lot of skills involved while passing the chicks from one parent to another. However, some of the chicks ended up frozen when the parents were unable to move them fast enough.
After the chicks were safely back in the mommy's pouch, the daddy penguin will have to set out to feed themselves. Otherwise, they will die of hunger. During their absence, the mommy penguins took over to look after their chicks. As time passes, the chicks grew bigger and stronger. Until their juvenile stage, the mothers allowed their chicks to gather as a group and play. At this time, the predators knew that it was time to strike for their food and some of the chicks ended up food to the predators.
During this while, the climate of the place was still very unpredictable. It so happened that there was another last round of extreme cold wind that took even more lives. Some of the chicks became victims of the harsh cold and died. At this time, the mommy penguins that lost their chicks became mad with grief and they became wild. They will try to snatch a chick from another mommy penguin so as to replace the dead chick. It was a very sad scene to see. The pain that the mommy penguin has to go through of losing its own chick. Gee.. I can't imagine how Daddy God will feel when He sees us suffering over here. Thank God that His Son Jesus, paid the price for us all that we don't have to suffer anymore or even face death.
ok. back to the penguins.. After 2 months, the father penguins came back to the family and amazingly again.. they were able to find their family through the voice of their chicks! This reminds me of this verse "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me. John 10:27" Cool..
Well.. this spells happy reunion of the entire family until the chicks were big enough to look after themselves and were also out of their weaning stage. At this time, the parents will move off and leave the chicks alone to explore. Pretty cute is that the chicks will gather together as one and they start to explore the world as one, just like a big family. From there, the entire cycle starts and the dance continues...
I simply love the way this documentary was being filmed. I would definitely encourage people to watch this documentary. Imagine the penguins have to face so much hardship to have just 1 chick. Imagine the same that our parents also went through having to bring us up.. I thank Daddy God for my parents. The only thing I want to see both of them holding hands and have a more abundant life and also my dad being saved.. :P
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Jacob's Wrestle
Praise Jesus!! Finally, my pc has been finally restored to its fullest potential. Had been working on my pc since late last night to reformat the entire pc. Installation was a total breeze and there had been no hindrances during the installation. Cool!! I used to take more than 1 week to complete the task and last night, Jesus was simply there to help me with all the necessary knowledge that I need.
Well, I went out with my usual gang of Godly friends and a new friend too. I was enjoying myself throughout the entire evening. One of my close friends raised up a question about Jacob having to wrestle with God for his blessings (Genesis 32:28 onwards). Another similar verse which I found while searching in my other bible versions was Hosea 12:3-4. Ok.. The question now is how come Jacob got to wrestle for his blessings?
Today, my close friend and I were thinking along the same path.. That is, the passage here indicates 2 things..
1. It indicates a similarity that now, we know that we are already blessed but not the blessing has yet to be manifested, we all sorta like must never give up the fight to claim our blessings.
2. While I was meditating Hosea, it dawned on me that hey.. the verse was talking about Jacob. The old Israel, the Old Covenant. Right now, all of us are in the New Covenant and that means one thing! We don't have to fight or wrestle with Daddy God for the blessings in our lives coz we already have them! We have the Blood-bought rights to claim our blessings and we don't have to fight! Fighting here is clearly indicative to self-effort. Jesus had already given His blessings to us. From the moment in the Garden where He became sorrowful even to death, to the moment He breathe His last on the cross. The divine exchange there had already taken place.
Hallelujah! Praise be to Jesus.. Glory be to Him!! It's pretty interesting.. I believe that there's more to the 2 things which I was thinking. Would be even glad if anyone has different viewpoint to state. Whatever it is, I'm starting to see more and more of Jesus in the Old Testament and His Love for me and everyone in the New Testament.
Jesus!! You are truly the Lord of my life. I have nothing to give but to sing of praises to You in this blog and in my life. I love You, Jesus coz You have sacrificed all things, just for my sake. It's not my love for You.. It's Your Love for me.. You have always been inside my heart to teach me all things and there's no other gods like You who is willing to do everything for me..
Today, my close friend showed me a tablet in a Christian shop in Great World City. The words are so simple, yet so powerful.. It says.. Faith is not just believing that God can. It is what God will do.. Amazing, isn't it?? It's not only just by believing that God can.. It is what God will do for everyone of us who are in Christ! The loveliness of our Father and Jesus is simply irreplaceable.
Okie.. that's all for the day.. Time for rest so that can receive more from Daddy God. All praises be to Jesus for He is GREAT!!! Brain a bit stunned today coz of sleep debt.. Snooze!! I'm in my beautiful dream land now..
Well, I went out with my usual gang of Godly friends and a new friend too. I was enjoying myself throughout the entire evening. One of my close friends raised up a question about Jacob having to wrestle with God for his blessings (Genesis 32:28 onwards). Another similar verse which I found while searching in my other bible versions was Hosea 12:3-4. Ok.. The question now is how come Jacob got to wrestle for his blessings?
Today, my close friend and I were thinking along the same path.. That is, the passage here indicates 2 things..
1. It indicates a similarity that now, we know that we are already blessed but not the blessing has yet to be manifested, we all sorta like must never give up the fight to claim our blessings.
2. While I was meditating Hosea, it dawned on me that hey.. the verse was talking about Jacob. The old Israel, the Old Covenant. Right now, all of us are in the New Covenant and that means one thing! We don't have to fight or wrestle with Daddy God for the blessings in our lives coz we already have them! We have the Blood-bought rights to claim our blessings and we don't have to fight! Fighting here is clearly indicative to self-effort. Jesus had already given His blessings to us. From the moment in the Garden where He became sorrowful even to death, to the moment He breathe His last on the cross. The divine exchange there had already taken place.
Hallelujah! Praise be to Jesus.. Glory be to Him!! It's pretty interesting.. I believe that there's more to the 2 things which I was thinking. Would be even glad if anyone has different viewpoint to state. Whatever it is, I'm starting to see more and more of Jesus in the Old Testament and His Love for me and everyone in the New Testament.
Jesus!! You are truly the Lord of my life. I have nothing to give but to sing of praises to You in this blog and in my life. I love You, Jesus coz You have sacrificed all things, just for my sake. It's not my love for You.. It's Your Love for me.. You have always been inside my heart to teach me all things and there's no other gods like You who is willing to do everything for me..
Today, my close friend showed me a tablet in a Christian shop in Great World City. The words are so simple, yet so powerful.. It says.. Faith is not just believing that God can. It is what God will do.. Amazing, isn't it?? It's not only just by believing that God can.. It is what God will do for everyone of us who are in Christ! The loveliness of our Father and Jesus is simply irreplaceable.
Okie.. that's all for the day.. Time for rest so that can receive more from Daddy God. All praises be to Jesus for He is GREAT!!! Brain a bit stunned today coz of sleep debt.. Snooze!! I'm in my beautiful dream land now..
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