Wandering Wondering Thoughts

Thoughts had been flying around today and I was wondering how to make out of them. Things kindda different after since I'm in my new job scope.. Is it time for me to move on to other places? Well.. I remember Pastor Prince ever mentioned about the same scenario during one of the sermons before.

He did mention about people having to switch to a new job and they thought that the new job will be a better job for them. And, these people will meet a bigger giant in the new place. Apparently, looks like I'm one of those people. Things are handled very differently in this new dept that I just switched to. People with a good eloquence in talking tend to be on a higher ground. Suddenly, I felt so small in this new dept and I'm seeing a giant. Grasshopper effect. SHIT is the word to describe anyway..

Well, in this kind of situation.. I can't do anything as I have to wait for 2 yrs before I can do another job transfer within the same company. But, I'm not going to let this stupid, uncircumcised giant Philistine to take over my Father in Heaven and Jesus' Glory! They will have the final say in everything in my life and no evil shall befall on me or on my career.

Father in Heaven, You will take care of all things for me and I'm going to rest. Even when things don't look good, I'm still going to rejoice in You and rest in Your Arms for comfort. You'll squash out the giants in my career and life, for Your Hands are BIGGER than the wimpy giants. Jesus had already finished His Work on the cross. Good days are here now from this point onwards! Amen!

Valuation in the eyes of Daddy God

How we value Jesus is how we value ourselves.. This is one thing that hit my mind when I was attending a service on last Sat for the singles in my church. I thank Daddy God for such a wonderful church to attend and to listen to His Words. Many times, we tend to de-value ourselves and not realising that by de-valuing ourselves, that's also how other people will value us. Worst still, people will value us even lower than how we value ourselves.

Valuation is something that most of us tend to evaluate on objects and even people. How do we value an object or a person or rather.. how do we value ourselves? De-valuation, Re-valuation, No-Valuation?

Daddy God sees me highly esteemed, highly valued to the extent that I am priceless to Him coz my Jesus is greatly esteemed, greatly valued that He is the ultimate priceless gem. His Love, His Works, His Grace is so warm and whenever I ponder upon His Love for me, my heart warms up and felt the peace and joy within. Well, He doesn't see me as a failure in relationships or a terrible parent in time when I get attached and eventually married to the best guy that God has prepared for me.. HEE!!! Well.. muz think ahead mah..

Just recently, I was telling Daddy God that I want to start on a new Godly relationship and I want to love the guy that Daddy God is going to show me. The fruit eventually is the love I had for my future husband and that will be from our Daddy God. Well.. I'm concentrating more on Jesus rather than all these now. How much thinking abt it doesn't bring on anything with good fruits and may even end up in a very futile relationship. Well.. in a relationship, there must always be a third party and that's Jesus!! hahaha.. hey.. what are u thinking of?? :P juz teasing..

Anyway, I juz frowned in my office earlier after listening to one of the dumbest songs which the radio station was broadcasting.. Sometimes, worldly songs can really make me feel rather irritated esp the song "Sex Bomb". Geesh.. It sounds so awful and so idiotic to certain level and there are people who actually loved it. Grose..

I think I rather listen to the sermons or worship songs while working.. That'll perk me up than listening to the overhead music broadcasted from the radio stations.. YUCKS! okie.. better get back to work otherwise tonight got to stay until late.. BRR..

Whatever it is, I know Daddy God will bless me with an awesome week with perfect peace, and joy.. Amen!!

Love

wow.. it's been a long long time since my last blog.. :P hee.. I was too engrossed in the new Harry Potter book which my good friend had lent me. Took me a week's nite to finally finish the book and completed it last night.. Hmm.. a bit slow in reading.. sigh.. well.. I can try doing speed reading on the earlier books.. hahaha.. anyway, just some personal comments about the book and how I relate some parts of the book with the bible. I nearly cried after reading the end of the book that Dumbledore was killed!! ARGH!! Darn!! ok.. back to my topice before I start to go wandering, wondering.. Whenever I continue to read the book, I start to reflect back and to see how much Daddy God and Jesus have loved me. It has shed some light to me in certain manner.

I've always admired the creativity in J.K Rowling and her choice of words and sentences in the entire book. It has till now remained one of my favourite books and I'm looking forward to the last book (in which I heard so from my friends who also loved the story about Harry Potter). Whenever I start to read the book and also with the advice of my good friend, I will pray over.

It's not about magical words, magical potions or even Harry Potter that intrigue my interests to read on. There's a lot more to it. It's about love and how evil cannot overcome the world is because of love. There's a lot of emotions within. The greatest enemy of evil is love. HA! Anyway, though the book is not of the bible, I discovered that there are so many occasions that this book is talking about love, darkness, etc.. Something amuses me more is in this new book where I can find quite a few similarities to the bible and how Daddy God's and Jesus love are just like Harry Potter's parents' love for him. They sacrificed their lives to die so that he can live. His parents, esp his mother died out of her extreme love for her son, that nothing can strike her child as it is love that protected Harry Potter. Hey!! sounds familiar huh?? Jesus also died for me and His extreme Love for me that He died on the cross for me. It is His Love that protected me from the works of the devil. Hallelujah!! Jesus is so wonderful!!

Somewhere in the early chapter of the book where it says.. Lord Voldemort's word is law.. (this one has double meaning to me.. anyway, both interpretations are correct in the context..) okie.. now, this sounds like the devil.. The devil's words are law and he puts the Law into us to kill us. Interestingly, the life of this so-called Lord Voldemort is simply deprived of parental love and also his line heritage of evilness that moved him to dark side. That causes him to become the most evil wizard in the wizarding community and even the muggle (which actually means the non-wizarding community). During his younger days, he was actually a "gentleman" in his actions and words , but his heart is full of strife, hatred and evilness. Eh.. well.. doesn't look like the fruits of the heart. He is a very well-mannered person in his younger days but his words are placed to his own advantage in order to retrieve his own personal gain and knowledge.

Now, this is a real typical display of the hypocrisy in human beings. Be it Christians or not, everyone's in the flesh and we are weak whenever we are in the flesh.. A person can be "gracious", "loving" in his/her actions but not in his/her heart. Whatever is in the person's heart, it will show the person's character.

okie.. I will stop short of Harry Potter now.. Hee.. Now, I'm aiming for the next book to read and that is the chronicles of Narnia by Carl Lewis.. I'm waiting for the price to drop further before I buy.. :P I can't wait to lay my hands on that book!! Anyway, there's a show to be released at the end of December which is one of the books inside the chronicles of Narnia. That is The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.. okie dokie.. time for me to do some quiet time before I set out for the day!! Have a blessed weekend and I'll be back!!

My Solid Foundation

Now it's home alone time!! haha.. My parents are now sleeping in our holiday home in Port Dickson (Malaysia) right now.. oh man!! I wished I can take another 2 days leave to have that getaway.. hehehe.. anyway, I don't mind either. I've loads and loads of new stuffs to learn in my new job right now and it's getting very interesting.. I'm truly grateful to my Daddy God and Jesus for standing right beside me to cheer me on and help me in grasping knowledge. Jesus is indeed my Knowledge and Wisdom. Without Jesus, I'm nothing.. Indeed, He is my Solid Foundation.

I stand upon this Rock and nothing can tear me down from this Rock. Well, I had a day full of thinking about Jesus, talking to Him and singing praise songs, etc.. It had been a long time since I've done that and now I'm on cloud 9!! Hallelujah!!

Well.. now it reminds me of my first time home alone.. it was rather scary coz I hadn't experienced it before and that happened when I was 15 yrs old.. My parents went on a holiday together. Gee.. well.. quite an experience, I can say. However, I dun know how I managed to get thru those days but I do know now is how Daddy God had been watching over me since I was young. Gosh.. I really missed those days when I was in Sunday School, that my mom brought me to a church.

Interestingly, that church happened to be a Pentecostal church.. However, its doctrines are just like the Galatians. Sad to say, not many of them have gotten a breakthrough in their lives and most of the time, it seemed that they are living on the edge. However, thank God for His mercy and grace that He still took care of this church. I guess it's because of their constant prayer in the Spirit that moves the Holy Spirit into action. Well, how I wished that they will one day be able to see the full Gospel of Jesus Christ, as what Apostle Paul had been strongly preaching throughout his entire ministry.

It is so important for a church to be built on a solid foundation, lest they shall be tossed away by the strong winds and storms. I thank Daddy God for the current church that I'm attending and it has given me a lot of revelation knowledge so that my foundation can be strengthened in Him. He is my Foundation.. Praise be to Daddy God and Jesus!! Amen..

well, I just bought 2 fresh water crayfish and both of them had been fighting and shoving each other.. It's pretty fun to watch their movements esp the smaller crayfish. It likes to disturb the bigger one and ended up getting shoved aside. haha.. pretty funny.. Anyway, I haven't think of their names yet. Need to continue observing their movements before I decide on their names.. hee..

okie.. be blessed!!

In God's Eyes

something rather interesting that God had shown me earlier when I was listening to one of the praise worship album by Pastor Prince and also after reading my dearest friend's blog. How does God see our giants?

Well, a giant to us is always something big in which we always fear and kept putting ourselves in a position that we "are able to defeat" the giants on our own. But little to our own understanding, each time we face the giant, we will always freak out and run without letting God to fight the giant for us. God today showed me something that to Him, the giant is just a small fly in His Eyes and Hands. His Hands are so big that the fly ends up getting swatted by His Hand. So, who is big?? God's Hands are BIGGER than the giant that are small in His eyes..

So, how does that apply to the giants in my circumstances today?? Well, they are just like the small flies buzzing around irritatingly and in His eyes, they are small like flies. Now, I seek upon Daddy God that He will be the exterminator of these flies.. His Hands are so big that His Hands will just clap and the flies will juz get swatted between His Mighty Hands.. Hmm.. looks a bit funny like the cartoon but this is the fact that this is how I'm visualising Daddy God as my giant swatter! PIAK! and there goes the giants of my circumstances..

Right now, I'm still standing in the favor of Daddy God and I know He's always right in me to tell me of interesting things which I always love so much. When I was praying in the Spirit in the office this morning, I felt a rush of warmth in my heart and juz simply felt Him in my heart to assure me that things are ok. He had already taken care of all my needs, my wants, and my circumstances. The only one thing that is needful is to rest at His Feet.

I remember I saw this vision that I was hiding behind a wall, peeking out to take a look at Daddy God and Jesus. Well, the next thing I knew in my heart was that Daddy God waved to me to ask me to go forward to Him. I felt just like a little child whose parent was waving to the child to come forward. I took that step and went forward to Him and the next moment I knew was that His Arms were stretched out so wide to receive me. It was such a heart-melting moment and immediately I ran towards Him and hugged Daddy God. He carried me on His Shoulders and patted me on my back, just like a daddy lifted his darling daughter on his shoulder, hugging her and gave her a loving pat to assure her that she is safe in his hands.

Daddy Daddy Daddy God!! Jesus!! You are so wonderful and You have been assuring me in this manner all the time. I love you coz You love me more than anything else in the world. You loved me to the extreme like as though there's no other people in the world. Lord Lord.. You are always the loving God who loves everyone and me.

My heart broke whenever I see You hung on the cross coz it was Love that put You up there to die for me. Your Love, Your Heart stretched out to me like a parent receiving the child into his loving arms.. Daddy God.. Lord Jesus.. I love you!!

Amen...

Booting out Hagar and her son Ishmael

Yesterday's sermon was so good and I had received so much good stuffs after listening to the Word of God. Pastor Aage from Norway is truly another man of God who preached good sermons of the grace of God. He was sharing with us about the two covenants (Galatians 4:21 - 5:1). When we are in the old covenant, that is to bring the law into our lives, we are putting ourselves into bondage. That is having Hagar and Ishmael under the same roof as Abraham, Sarah and Isaac.

Over here the bible is making the symbolical comparison between Hagar and Sarah (meaning Hagar is of the old covenant which is from the Mount Sinai where the 10 Commandments came from and Sarah being the symbolical representation of Grace which is of the new covenant that God had set upon Himself to us). I love v28 where it says that "Now we, brethren, as Isaac was, are children of promise". This means that we are of the freewoman which is of Sarah, which is the symbolical representation of Grace which is of God and we are the children of promise! Hallelujah!

So, next is in v30 where it says "Cast out the bondwoman and her son, for the son of the bondwoman shall not be heir with the son of the freewoman." This simply means that we are to cast out the law from our lives and when we cast out the law, we are in grace. Now we are in the New Covenant which is the grace covenant.

Many Christians are still in the state of confusion when they mix law and grace together. In Genesis 21, when Isaac was weaned out of his milk (symbolical meaning that we also weaned out of the law and smack ourselves right into knowing that we are the Righteousness of God in Christ), that was the time when Sarah told Abraham to cast out Hagar and her son from the house. God also told Abraham to listen to Sarah when Abraham was sorta "pissed off" by Sarah's remarks to cast Hagar out of the house.

So, what does that mean to us?? It means that God wants us to also cast out the bondwoman and her son out of our lives and live knowing that we are like Isaac who is heir of everything. Another thing that was shared also that Pharaoh wanted Sarah coz she's beautiful. However, God didn't allow that to happen. Pharaoh represents the devil, Sarah represents grace and Abraham represents faith coz he has faith in God for everything in his life (Romans 4:1-4). So, in this context, the devil is trying to pull grace away from faith and faith away from grace. Why is it that the devil is so into putting the law into us?? well.. Luke 8:12 says it all.. "Those by the wayside are the ones who hear; then the devil comes and takes away the word out of their hearts, lest they should believe and be saved."

Cool!! And to add on, Romans 10:4 "For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes." So, who are righteous?? We believers are the righteousness of God in Christ. And Christ is the end of the law which He had already fulfilled for all of us. He died on our behalf, He fulfilled the law on our behalf and that is His Love for us!

Knowing that how much He loved us, do you think u will still want to commit any sins?? Esp for those who still want to dispute this that "oh.. since there's grace, that means we can continue in our sins". Well, Paul disputed that with the people.. Anyway, I'll not go into it too much detail yet.. This is another thing which people always like to dispute..

Well, after worshipping the Lord in the Hokkien service today, the Lord showed me something that touched my heart so much.. He was showing me that for every stroke of beating that He took unto His own Body, He said this to me "Sharon, this is the beating that I'm willing to bear for you. Every stripe taken is My Love extended out to you. I want you to know how much I love you." Each time I see Jesus taking a stroke, He took it for me on my behalf. The same also when He was hung on the cross. It was His Love for me that He willingly bore it for me. It was His Love for me that He willingly became poor for my sake, so that I don't have to go through any single curses, poverty or sicknesses and diseases. None of these will come to me coz Jesus bore them all for me on the cross..

Like what Pastor Aage was saying, all of us must move from Mount Sinai to Calvary. Well, we must not move back from Calvary to Mount Sinai, lest the works of our Lord Jesus Christ became of no effect in our lives.

Well, this is my personal understanding of what the sermon is about and I'm not sure about others. But I do hope that this will help release whatever burden you have in your heart.

I was also having another heart-to-heart talk with Jesus and He asked me what am I going to do about my enemies? Well, it's a very hard thing to do and say, I told the Lord that I will still want to love them because You also love them like You love me. Not by my efforts but by Him, through Him and with Him, He will bring my heart to love people rather than fulfilling for my own selfishness. Well.. I will not be able to love my enemies, frankly speaking. But I'm going to ask the Lord to help me.

Hallelujah! All Praises due to Jesus!! Amen!!

Fireworks on 14/08/2005

Fireworks Display

Moving Boat @ Boat Quay

CBD @ Nite

Hmm.. well.. photos are not spectacular in any ways but juz wanting to put up for some display.. juz find that photography is very interesting and thanks to Evelyn who taught me some settings which I din remember. (",)

More photos

Twin Towers (Taken in KL) on 09/08/2005

Bedtime Blog

Right before I take my rest for the nite, guess I wanna write some stuffs. After days and months of thinking over life, I thank God for a blessed life and how much He has always been loving me even when I don't feel His Presence near me. I guess I was just too loud in my mind and thoughts to listen to His voice. Pastor Prince has always been telling us to keep focusing on the cross whenever we are having any doubts in our hearts.

Had been trying to do so many times for the past few months but was unable to focus until recently. Well, things are slowly getting back to the norm. Recently, I read a testimony about restoration of perfect eye vision, I told Daddy God that I wanted also to have perfect eye vision so that I don't have to change glasses every year due to the swapping of degree from one eye to the other.. And also neither do I want to wear any contact lenses coz I have dry eyes. If Daddy God can heal her, I'm also doubly sure that Daddy God will heal me from my myopia and astigmatism. Jesus' Blood had been shed to purchase me from death, and nothing bad can cling unto me. So, that means perfect vision is for me, not short-sightedness.

Well.. first thing always got to come first.. That is to seek His Kingdom and His Righteousness first. Well, I don't know how long it'll take, but I believe Daddy God will heal me of this short-sightedness. Since He can heal me of my backpain, so can He do so also for my eyesight. Whether I'm healed or not, I'm still Jesus' beloved.

okie.. that's all my mind can think of writing for the night..

A new day

Finally!! A new day @ work.. Today's my first day in my new job. Had been running around the office the entire morning and now resting as it's lunch hour. Had been wondering what to do for the day, but I'll just rest and relac one corner first. As I'll be working on a project, gotta read up a lot on how to manage projects. Haha.. This is going to be very first time to handle projects.. Well.. Now I really totally depend on Jesus to help me and to give me all the knowledge that I need to help me strive in this team..

Gee.. There had been a lot of changes in the IT Dept here and seemed that there are so many people having to switch their job scopes. The new environment here is very different from the previous and still adjusting to the new change. Anyway, it won't take long for me to get adjusted coz I'm going to rest in Jesus to work things out for me. I'm still the Beloved Christian in whom Jesus loved so much that He will never let me be sadden by anything at all. Praise Jesus for His Wonderful Love for me..