Bless the Lord in ---> EVERYTHING

Psalm 103

As we are familiar with this Psalm, "Bless the Lord, O my soul and all that is within me, bless His Holy Name.", I always had this problem of blessing the Lord back in everything.  My mind is now having only the head knowledge but not the revelation of this Psalm.

However, it is never about me blessing the Lord.  It's about how Dad blesses us in everything.  He blesses us first, and in turn, He'll change our hearts to see His Goodness.  It's not about feelings or sensations.  It is a parched dry ground for me right now but I still believe that Dad has a greater blessing for me.

My eyes are not able to see the goodness of the Lord now,
My ears are not able to hear the goodness of the Lord now.
But the Lord will never stop His goodness from flowing into my life.

Dad, I can't rely on senses and feelings but to trust in You, that You are blessing my life and my family.  I do not know what is happening right now, but I just rest in this stillness and wait for You.  Even if I laze around at this moment, I guess it's a moment of rest for me AND to stop running/ barging aimlessly.  It's a time for me to stop, wait for You to take over me.  You will overtake my life and in this stillness, I'll rest under Your shades.

Dad,
Under Your wings, I seek refuge.
On Your Shoulders, You set me on high. 
You lift me up and soar like an eagle. 
An eaglet I am right now,
Waiting to be pushed beyond the cliff of impossibles.
And there, Your Wind will lift me higher
To the greater heights of impossibilities.

Holy Spirit, thank You for
healing me,
building me,
strengthening me,
molding me,
protecting me,
leading me, and
teaching me,
according to the Word of God.

Lord Jesus,
I see You as my Lord, not as a Rabbi. I want to worship You. You are my only Friend whom I can talk to, pour out my heart to, and You will always listen to my heart.   Lord Jesus, thank You for loving me. Thank You for blessing me, for embracing me, for protecting me.  Thank You for everything and making a "simple me". I love You, Lord Jesus.

Heaviness

Two days passed after the last conference (engaging the revelatory realm), my mind was just filled with mixed thoughts after that. The conference had changed me further - better? I have no idea.  As I journey on to seek the Lord, I just stay where I am right now - be still - and think of nothing else.  The night of ministering by Ps Steve Chua had given me a means of stepping forward to something more, i pray. 

my heart was kindda numb and yet heavy on the innermost. Been keeping my tots away from negativity and focus in Lord Jesus. Somehow i'm stifling something and refused to let go. My heart seemed to be sobbing real hard but no tears flowed. 

Lord, what's going on inside? I don't understand. My mouth couldn't open to say anything or utter anything. My mind is refusing to open my mouth. 

Lord Jesus, You are my Pain Killer - emotionally, physically and mentally. I don't know what to do anymore. I give up. 

Expectations out of the coming conference - Dr James Goll

Just another day to go to the start of another conference - Engaging the revelatory realm (by Dr James Goll). Had been waiting for this day to arrive and not exactly sure what to expect out of this conference yet.  Probably the 2nd day will be much clearer.

Dad, I know not what to expect out of this conference, but I do know that You have something in store for me out of this conference. I just want to remain in Your Presence throughout the entire conference and also to discern Your Ways for me in this new phase in life. 

Holy Spirit, fill my 3 days with the Presence of God and show me the Ways. You shall lead me and guide my heart. I'm going for this conference with expectations of receiving from the Lord and guide my heart in every part of the conference itself. 

Thank You Lord Jesus for this conference.  I wanna see more of You.
    

Evening session @ 3 nites of glory

it's the 2nd night at the conference - 3 nights of glory by joshua mills. the experience is interesting on the 1st night where gold dusts can be seen on my palms when Joshua Mills told us to lift up our hands into the holy presence. 

all of us were amazed and i was fascinated by the sparkles on my palm.. for a moment i was thinking if it's my sweaty palm.. 

it's 2nd night and i've made a prayer. And i also want to see more of the gold dusts.. if possible, gemstones too (since it had been recorded in Youtube)?

i do have some expectations tonite and i pray that i can see these expectations.

Daddy, settle my heart, okie?

Reviving this blog and re-living new moments with Daddy..

It's been ages and I've long forgotten this blog site until early May 2013. I started to read all the past blogs and remembered the days with Daddy. I missed those days and wanted them back once again. It had been a long plunge from high grounds and it takes time to recover from the plunge. Slowly and steady, Daddy will lead me home - to the highest grounds. Whether I'm discerning correctly or not, it doesn't matter to me anymore. It's a one-step per day and allowing Daddy to hold me and carry me. Daddy, I missed Your Presence. I want to feel Your Presence again. Where You are leading me, I know not. Whether my prayers are answered, I know not either. I've lost numerous and is this the life You have for me? I want to start everything in life all over again and this time, You take the lead. At this moment, I just want You to embrace me, that's all.. Time to revive this blog page and this whole blog is dedicated to You alone, Daddy. Each post is going to be an account of all the blessings and encounters with You.