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Count My Blessings

Many times I wonder how faithful or rather how real Lord Jesus is. Was it because my faith in Jesus became weak? Or was it that I have started to lose hope in Him who exists? Or was it due to my missing of my dad?

Most of the time when I'm alone, I felt that a large part of me is missing. And that missing part is always related to my dad. I'm truly amazed with my mom who took it well. Guess after all her years of enduring my dad? Or perhaps it's really the Lord who gave her the ultimate strength? I missed sms-ing him with messages to tell him I love him, to tell him that I'll buy dinner for him, to share with him about my day, etc.. I missed listening to his stories of his younger days. Or rather I missed arguing with him..

The problem of being too close to someone tends to make our hearts yearn for the person's presence once again after he/she has left on a new journey. But if one is not being close to our own family member, it feels like as though we have not done our part as son/daughter to love the other person when he/she is still with us. No doubt that my dad has gone on his new adventure, many times I wonder where he is, how's he doing, what's he doing, and main thing is he really still alive spiritually? I won't know the answer till I go back to Heaven. If I don't see him there, can I ask Daddy God for my dad to be with me in Heaven? There are so many questions that will be left unanswered until I'm home with Jesus.

I remember having played a game with my friend and one of the questions asked "If there is a wall, what way will I use to go over to the other side of the wall?" Well, my answer is walking to the end of the wall and then turn to the other side. But, how far is it to the end of the wall? I visualised an extreme long journey to the end of the wall (juz like the Great Wall of China?).

It's just a picture to indicate how long it'll take me to get over to the other side of the wall.. Perhaps a very long time in which I've no idea.. Sometimes, I also wonder why love can be so painful to such extent? I was also wondering why was it that I'm always the last person to know of some things that happened at home? How very unfair! However, I still want to thank God that everything is peaceful and nothing bad will happen anymore, as all of us are already in Christ (including my sis-in-law and brother). That is to say, the entire Yeow family is saved.

Each time when I started to fade and lose hope, I started to count my blessings that Daddy God had graciously granted to me.
Blessing #1 - a wonderful dad and mom who strived so hard as one flesh, to bring up both my brother and I,
Blessing #2 - a wonderful sis-in-law whom I can really teased and shared my heart with,
Blessing #3 - two wonderful kids at home to keep my mom occupied and also to bring fun and laughter in the family,
Blessing #4 - never to forget my 2 lovable friends who had been with me throughout this time, having to endure my grouchiness.. Praise Jesus for them..
Blessing #5 - a job to keep my mind busy,
Blessing #6 - a close friend who has also been keeping me in her prayer,
Blessing #7 - able to breathe every second,
Blessing #8 - able to walk, run, jump,
Blessing #9 - able to listen to sermons, music, voices, noises, etc,
Blessing #10 - able to have time with my mom,
Blessing #11 - able to feel, taste, and smell,
Blessing #12 - very important, having Lord Jesus as my Ultimate Savior and Friend,
Blessing #13 - able to serve in church,
Blessing #14 - have the chance to read the bible and know more about Lord Jesus,
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The list of blessings can never end coz our Father in Heaven never ceases to love us with His Love, to shower us with His tender loving care and kindness, to grant us with His favour every day, to bless us with His abundant blessings, etc..

Daddy God, despite of my doubts about your existence, You still love me as who I am, and what I am. You do not see me in my own self being, but You see me in Christ Jesus. That His Blood had washed me completely of all my sins, that He died my death, that He took all the punishments that were meant for me, that He bore all the sicknesses that were meant for me, all the curses that He took on my behalf. Daddy God, nothing of myself is worthy of Your attention but You took time to pay attention to my needs and my calls for You. You love me so much that You won't want to see me cry. You have been containing all my tears in Your Tear-Bottle and You will never let a single drop of my tears to waste. Lord Jesus, I just don't know what to do but to depend on You. I've no choice but to cast all my cares, all my pains, all my worries, all my problems to You. I don't know how to deal with issues in life but You know how to resolve every single one of them for me. I don't know how, I don't know when but I do know You can and You will solve everything for me and my family. Lord Jesus, unto You, I cast everything for Your attention and Your action. Thank You Jesus. I don't care how You do it, I just know You will solve them for me. You know what they are and I don't need to spell out every single one of them. Daddy God, as Jesus is in Heaven right now, so am I on earth. He is my Righteousness, my Understanding, my Wisdom, my Provider, my Healer and literally my Everything. There's nothing I can hold in my hands, and You can hold them all in Your Mighty Hands. Who can go against You, who is the Almighty One? Daddy God, unto You, my soul, body and mind rest. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen..

Fun time @ church function

Wow... I thank Daddy God for such a fun time at my church's Ministry of Helps function nite.. There has never been a day that I will feel bored ever since I entered this church. Initially, I thought that I won't be able to make it for the function coz of my "bad" flu that caused me to have throat infection and high fever for the past few days. Praise Jesus that one of my friends called me last night and we were on the phone for nearly an hr. Right after the conversation, I noticed that my throat wasn't as painful as it was earlier in the day.

Indeed, I've received my healing and I'm continuing to receive total healing from this dreaded flu. Well, whatever it is, I'm still able to make it for the function. It was a nite of total fun and laughter. Truly praise Jesus for making this possible for me.

Well.. there was a song which Deacon Jeffrey sang at the last section of the function that helped me see Jesus again. I felt so weak throughout the week and after listening to this, He is my Strength.. It's a song by Steve Curtis Chapman..

His Strength is Perfect
I can do all things,
Through Christ who gives me strength,
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me.
No great success to show
No glory on my own
Yet in my weakness
He is there to let me know

His Strength is perfect,
When our strength is gone.
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His Power, the weak becomes strong
His Strength is perfect
His Strength is perfect

We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His Strength in us begins
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again

A beautiful song and it melts my heart right there and then.. Jesus is my Strength.. Many people told me to be strong for my mom after my dad passed away.. Many times, I told the Lord that I can't and don't even know how to be strong.. I'm felt so weak and tired and just can't find the strength at times.. This song just cuts right into my heart now as I start to think more about His Love for me and His Strength in me.

Now I know that it's Jesus telling me that "Darling.. My Strength is perfect. Just rest in my bosoms and I will carry you all the way. I'm putting you on my Shoulders and I'm carrying you all the way."

Lord Jesus, I want to thank You that You are my Strength. You are my Comforter. I have no idea how to move on with life without You, Lord. It is You who gave me the Strength that I need. You are the One to show me the Way. You are the One who can direct every footstep that I take. Lord, I thank You that You are ALIVE. Thank you for loving me and my entire family. I'm so blessed, so favoured and so loved by You. Thank You Lord Jesus.. And because of Your Love, my entire family is already saved including my sis-in-law. I thank You that my sis-in-law's entire family are also saved! :D In Your Most Wonderful, Mighty Name, I pray. Amen!

Hmm.. what to write? Only 1 thing.. Thank you Daddy God that You have never leave me nor forsake me in any day of my life and my entire family including my dad.. :D

ok.. that's all..

Faith comes by hearing and hearing alone

To what extent that faith comes by? Previously, I used to think that as long as we speak forth the Word of God, faith will come automatically. It was pretty interesting when my church pastor pointed out the scriptural verses to show us that faith actually comes by hearing and hearing alone - Romans 10:17

Many times, we tend to misplace faith to our own self-effort that we must do something to have faith. However it's not. It's only by the hearing the Word of God that faith will be stirred up within our hearts. When faith was being stirred up, we tend to speak forth thanksgiving to our Lord Jesus. Sometimes even when faith wasn't stirred up in our hearts, just listening to the sermons also brings forth blessings.

I never understood how listening to the Word of God can actually help me solve the problems until today. I had been fretting over some work and subconsciously, I ended up listening to sermons again. Praise be to Jesus that help came very fast. Initially I was having a lot of problems understanding a new programming language. And thank God that He sent my colleague to help me. My colleague ended up writing the entire program. :P and I've managed to learn some interesting stuffs.

I didn't realise it until much later when I reached home. Well.. the only thing I knew was that my inner being was being fed with the Word and I had no idea how the problems can actually be resolved.. Whatever it is, I still thank Daddy God for sending help.. :D

okie.. time to buzz off for another few days or rather weeks, I guess..

To my most beloved daddy..

Days have come and gone,
Our hearts are still as one,
A moment of this time that,
I see you not with my eyes.

The eyes of my heart see you,
Happy and Perfect,
Joyful and Peaceful,
All days in Heaven with Jesus.

You may have departed,
It's only for a time being.
Nothing can tear us apart,
Not even death.

No matter what you have done,
I still love you very deeply.
You are my most beloved daddy,
and I thank God for you.

I long to see you,
To listen to your soothing voice,
To be with you,
All the days of my life.

Tears may flow,
Heart may sorrow,
But my spirit is lifted,
Coz you still alive.

You are in every beat of my heart,
You are in every step that I take.
You are in every thoughts that I make,
You are in every words that I speak.

And most importantly,
You are still alive, and
You are in Heaven now.
Till the time comes,
We will definitely meet again.
For this is the promise of
our Heavenly Father and Lord Jesus.

Amen..

5 loaves and 2 fishes

Many days have passed and it's been three weeks, almost four weeks that my entire family's life and mine were changed. I thank Daddy God for His Comfort that He had given to me in my life and my family and also for every little things. I remember telling my friends before I came into New Creation Church was that, if we learn how to give thanks to Daddy God for small little things in our lives, how much more He will give us bigger things to us. And I suddenly recalled telling this to many of my friends before after listening to Pastor Prince's sermons today.

Daddy God, I thank you for my dad and my mom whom you have put them together all these years in my life, despite the evil efforts of destructions from the fallen one. I thank You even more that my dad's soul is now in your bosom and he's happy in Heaven which is called HOME to us all. Your Love for me is always there, even when I don't even deserve any. Your Grace surpasses all things and truly, You are my everything, Lord Jesus. And all these I give thanks to the Father, and Lord Jesus! Amen!

Wah!! mom's snoring liao. hahaha.. well, I thank Daddy God for a peaceful rest for her and my entire family.

Oh yah.. before I forget.. now back to the 5 loaves and 2 fishes.. When Pastor Prince was sharing about this verse and he's talking about thanksgiving. Interestingly the Holy Spirit showed me the hidden Grace Covenant! Hahaha.. 5 speaks of grace and 2 speaks of covenant. So fun!! There's a hidden grace covenant in this and Jesus was giving thanks to the Father, not only for the loaves and the fish.. Also for the Grace of the Father on everyone of us. His passion for us is so great that nothing can compare to it.

Gee.. dun know whether I'm on the right track or not. But anyway, this was in my thoughts during the sermons. hee..

okie.. time to sleep.. May all of u have a blessed week ahead!! A week full of joy and peace.. SHALOM!!

Symbolical representation of numbers

This is something that amazes me in some ways.. I pray that I'm not too paranoid into figures.. Well, lately there had been several instances when the number 4 was impressing very deeply in my heart until recently. I didn't understand the reason and well, I guess it's the Holy Spirit who prompted me into deep thoughts..

The number 4 is a number which many Chinese people detest very much. Recently, I got to understand the symbolical representation of this number which represents the 4 corners of the earth as well as the 4 corners of the cross.

The stupid egg (ie that darn no-air-time devil) has been putting a lot of superstitious thinkings into the minds of most Chinese people that it's a very inauspicious number and it brings forth death. Well.. indeed.. It also sounds like death when you read it out in Chinese or in any Chinese dialects.

However, the Holy Spirit showed me that 4 is the representation of the cross. It is on the cross that Jesus was cruxified on. It was where Jesus died on. He was hung on the cross. And this is where Jesus had conquered death for all of us!! See!!! The stupid egg doesn't want us to believe in Jesus who died for all of us and it puts superstitious thoughts into the minds of people who were created by our Creator, our Lord Jesus Himself. The stupid egg is trying to pull us away from the Creator Himself.

And most Chinese people tend to put the traditions and the laws into their lives. This gives the darn egg the open door to wreck havoc in our lives. But PRAISE BE TO JESUS!! He conquered all deaths and He HIMSELF brought everyone of us back to His side for eternity. The devil has no more power over death. He can only wreck havoc into our lives by putting in all the false doctrines, the law, and lies, to make our hearts fail. The devil simply has NO MORE power! He's now like a wimp that goes around to roar like a sick lion.

Ok.. no more air time for that darn egg.. I have only time for our Lord Jesus and He's the only One who deserves all our air time! Praise Jesus for His Grace towards us is so super-abundant exceedingly great (which means INFINITY!). There's no limit to His Grace for all of us. The only thing we just need to do is to REST and He will do all things for us.

He had redeemed us from sweat, stress, sicknesses, diseases, curses, disasters, sorrows, pains and every bad things. He took them upon Himself and He exchanged all of His blessings and goodness and gave them to everyone of us.

The only thing I have to say is I urge those who are still not believing in Jesus to believe Him. Your heart just need to say out, Lord Jesus, I need You and You are my Lord and Savior. He hears you, He reads your heart. He's the Creator of all mankind, in the likeness of Himself. So, what makes one think that He cannot read our hearts? :P He loves everyone and He will never forsake anyone on earth and will never allow any soul to depart from Him coz all of us belong to HIM and HIM ALONE..

Amen..

The Infinite Amount of Love from God

I know I've went missing for quite a while now.. I have a lot of things to say this time and looks like it'll take some time. The first thing I want to say is that ALL GLORY AND PRAISES TO JESUS CHRIST!!

Well.. U muz be wondering how come like that? I can say is that most of us are unable to really understand that kind of love that Daddy God has for us all the time. I haven't understood it until lately. My dad just passed away on 14th Sept 2005. He was playing a good game of golf and he suddenly collapsed on Hole 12. And he passed away on the way to the hospital. When I received the news, I was amazed that my heart was pretty peaceful and calm over it. Only when the undertaker came knocking at my home, I was breaking down but still very peaceful in my heart.

I didn't know why but I just want to trust in the Lord that my daddy is fine. I was totally confused and didn't know what to do as my dad died in Malaysia and not in Singapore. I had no choice but to seek help and I've never expected anything out of anything. I didn't know what to do at all. But Daddy God knew my difficulties and He had arranged everything for me and my family. From the point of embracing my daddy back home to Himself and to Heaven, bringing his body back home to Singapore until the cremation of his body, and even how Daddy God has really finished everything for me and my family.

At the very moment when I received the news, I had no one to ask but to go home and wait for my brother to go home and help out. He's the only one whom I thought that he can do everything this time.. Anyway, my brother is also very capable in my eyes. Well, Daddy God placed a dear friend's name into my mind and told me to call her. So, I called her and told her about the news. I didn't expect her to do anything at all. However, out of her were total grace and love that she started to do some arrangements and told me to be calm and wait for her so that she can bring me and my family into Malaysia.

She sacrificed her work and time to help me.. I really thank Daddy God for a great friend like her and also loads of friends, colleagues, dad's friends, etc whom I really have to thank Daddy God for. I now thank Daddy God for super-exceeding abundant blessings upon them who stood by me, throughout the temporary moment of loss. They are a true blessings to me and no amount of money can replace them at all, for they are so precious to me.. For those who are praying for me or not praying, or just reading, I thank Daddy God for the super-abundant blessings to be upon all of you oso.

Ok.. when my friend came to my house together with another lady from my church's funeral help ministry, I was so comforted coz I know that it's Daddy God who had arranged for them to be around to help me. I thank God that they sacrificed their own time so much to help me and the main thing is that none of them were paid by the church for their services in the ministry that they are serving. I'm truly touched by their sincerity and helps. This is really God's love coming out from them all. Prior to entering Malaysia, my brother and I had to get a lot of medical reports from doctors whom my dad had visited for his medical history. Praise God that we got the necessary reports within the time-frame of 2 hrs while waiting for my dear friends. Right after that, we went into J.B. and headed on to the hospital. When we reached there, I saw my dad's friends and I totally broke down. They comforted my mom, brother and I. They told us that my dad received his salvation in Jesus Christ. All of his friends there are Christians. They are his closest friends and they knew much more about my daddy.

I'm totally amazed about this coz they are his closest friends who had been ministering to him all the time when he's alive. My entire family and his friends also prayed for my daddy and we shared the gospel to him all the time when he's alive. In our hearts, everyone of us had the peace that he is already in Heaven, enjoying himself with Jesus and Daddy God, in the embracing Arms of our Beloved God.

Throughout the entire wake and the funeral, there had been so many friends and relatives around us who gave their time for us and stayed around with me and my family. I truly appreciated every one of their kindness. During the service which my pastor gave, we felt the ultimate peace in our hearts and my mom regained her strength. She said that she saw a cloud of Glory covering my dad's coffin and his picture. It was super amazing! And both of us actually had the same vision at one point of the service that we saw my dad's biggest smile. It was there and then, we knew in our hearts that he is safe and happy. More confirmations came when my mom and my sis-in-law told me that my dad was listening to a sermon once, in which I knew my dad doesn't do so in our presence esp when I'm around. :P

And right after that, one of my dear friend wrote in her blog Romans 5:5. And my heart just simply lifted off again! I remembered during the entire moment, i heard the Holy Spirit ever posed me questions whenever I started to doubt. He asked if I believed. And I told Him, YES. I believe and believe that Daddy God is in control of all things.

After the funeral, my mom and I had a very long talk about my dad and she told me of all the events that happened prior to the day he passed away. I realised that Daddy God is truly in control of all the events such as, bringing his friends whom he has never seen for some time to chat with him, sending people to watch over him, etc.. There are so many small things that I really thank Daddy God for coz it's all these small things that are big to me.

Well.. right now, I don't know what else to do but to take one step at a time. Thank God also that He strengthened my mom's heart. In fact, I have nothing to say but to say a lot of thanks to Daddy God and Jesus. Without Jesus, I will be totally lost. Jesus, Jesus.. What can I do without You? You are my Vine, my Righteousness, my Friend, my Everything and most importantly, You are my GOD! My Lord and my Savior. Nothing can replace You. Thank You Jesus. Your Love is just simply infinite for me and my family. Truly, I cannot live without You, Jesus. You are my Life!

Ok, I'll stop here for the moment.. Time to fetch my nephew to school. Now I understood how much my dad had sacrificed his time and rest for his entire family. This makes me love him even more.. And also my Jesus and Daddy God.. Thank You Jesus. I love You, Jesus!!

March of the Penguins

Yesterday, I went out with my dear friend to watch the March of the Penguins. This documentary movie was very well-filmed. After watching the entire documentary, I think penguins are the only animal species that suffered the most during its mating season. What makes it interesting is that the penguins had their yearly dance in which both male and female penguins will dance with each other and eventually mate to have their offspring. Each pair of penguins can only have 1 chick at a time.

The entire documentary shows how the penguins came out of the water and marched in a single file to their mating destination which was very far away. Some of them didn't make it to their destination as they either wander off from the pack or are too old to carry on with the journey(though the documentary din explicitly mention that). After they have reached their destination, they started to look for their mate and most of them got their mates. Just as the natural instincts, male penguins will fight with each other for the female that they wanted to dance with.

After each pair of the penguins have found each other, they continued with their dance (ie their mating session). Right after that, they became very silent and waited for the time (coz the female penguins were being fertilised and the egg in each female penguin started to form). This entire process took 3 months. After 3 months, every female penguin will start to lay their egg and another dance started. This time, the egg will have to be passed on to the male penguin which will in turn look after the egg and warm the egg until it hatches. Some of the pairs didn't manage to pass the egg and the egg got frozen and that's the end of a life. Sad huh.. wait on.. Anyway, the male penguins were the most amazing ones here.

After the egg has been passed to the male penguins, the females will move out to look for a place where they can find food to replenish their bodies and also to bring back for the chicks to feed on. Right after the females moved off, the main scene was back to the father penguins. They have to stay on to look after the eggs for the next 4 months. During the 4 months, the males have to endure a lot of hardship, esp during the harsh winter climates and the low temperature plus wind. Interestingly, all the male penguins will gather together in an area so that heat can be regulated within. Sadly, there are some who cannot withstand the harshness of the environment and ended up having to sleep forever.

The worst part of the entire mating season is when the male penguins had to protect the eggs from cold and yet they have to suffer in the cold. All for the sake of just one egg.. which is one life.. After the 4 months were over, the chicks will start to pop out from their shells. They are still very vulnerable to the cold and they have to constantly hide in their daddys' pouch. At the same time, they waited for the mommy penguins to come back.

Well, some of the mommy penguins didn't make it back coz of the travelling to and fro the mating grounds. Some of them were also attacked by the predators. But majority made it back on time to feed their chicks. After they arrived at the mating ground, I'm very amazed that they can actually recognise their own family. Something which is really totally amazing. After the female penguins found their family, the father penguin will then pass the chick back to the mommy which will in turn, feed the chicks. There's always a lot of skills involved while passing the chicks from one parent to another. However, some of the chicks ended up frozen when the parents were unable to move them fast enough.

After the chicks were safely back in the mommy's pouch, the daddy penguin will have to set out to feed themselves. Otherwise, they will die of hunger. During their absence, the mommy penguins took over to look after their chicks. As time passes, the chicks grew bigger and stronger. Until their juvenile stage, the mothers allowed their chicks to gather as a group and play. At this time, the predators knew that it was time to strike for their food and some of the chicks ended up food to the predators.

During this while, the climate of the place was still very unpredictable. It so happened that there was another last round of extreme cold wind that took even more lives. Some of the chicks became victims of the harsh cold and died. At this time, the mommy penguins that lost their chicks became mad with grief and they became wild. They will try to snatch a chick from another mommy penguin so as to replace the dead chick. It was a very sad scene to see. The pain that the mommy penguin has to go through of losing its own chick. Gee.. I can't imagine how Daddy God will feel when He sees us suffering over here. Thank God that His Son Jesus, paid the price for us all that we don't have to suffer anymore or even face death.

ok. back to the penguins.. After 2 months, the father penguins came back to the family and amazingly again.. they were able to find their family through the voice of their chicks! This reminds me of this verse "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me. John 10:27" Cool..

Well.. this spells happy reunion of the entire family until the chicks were big enough to look after themselves and were also out of their weaning stage. At this time, the parents will move off and leave the chicks alone to explore. Pretty cute is that the chicks will gather together as one and they start to explore the world as one, just like a big family. From there, the entire cycle starts and the dance continues...

I simply love the way this documentary was being filmed. I would definitely encourage people to watch this documentary. Imagine the penguins have to face so much hardship to have just 1 chick. Imagine the same that our parents also went through having to bring us up.. I thank Daddy God for my parents. The only thing I want to see both of them holding hands and have a more abundant life and also my dad being saved.. :P

Jacob's Wrestle

Praise Jesus!! Finally, my pc has been finally restored to its fullest potential. Had been working on my pc since late last night to reformat the entire pc. Installation was a total breeze and there had been no hindrances during the installation. Cool!! I used to take more than 1 week to complete the task and last night, Jesus was simply there to help me with all the necessary knowledge that I need.

Well, I went out with my usual gang of Godly friends and a new friend too. I was enjoying myself throughout the entire evening. One of my close friends raised up a question about Jacob having to wrestle with God for his blessings (Genesis 32:28 onwards). Another similar verse which I found while searching in my other bible versions was Hosea 12:3-4. Ok.. The question now is how come Jacob got to wrestle for his blessings?

Today, my close friend and I were thinking along the same path.. That is, the passage here indicates 2 things..
1. It indicates a similarity that now, we know that we are already blessed but not the blessing has yet to be manifested, we all sorta like must never give up the fight to claim our blessings.
2. While I was meditating Hosea, it dawned on me that hey.. the verse was talking about Jacob. The old Israel, the Old Covenant. Right now, all of us are in the New Covenant and that means one thing! We don't have to fight or wrestle with Daddy God for the blessings in our lives coz we already have them! We have the Blood-bought rights to claim our blessings and we don't have to fight! Fighting here is clearly indicative to self-effort. Jesus had already given His blessings to us. From the moment in the Garden where He became sorrowful even to death, to the moment He breathe His last on the cross. The divine exchange there had already taken place.

Hallelujah! Praise be to Jesus.. Glory be to Him!! It's pretty interesting.. I believe that there's more to the 2 things which I was thinking. Would be even glad if anyone has different viewpoint to state. Whatever it is, I'm starting to see more and more of Jesus in the Old Testament and His Love for me and everyone in the New Testament.

Jesus!! You are truly the Lord of my life. I have nothing to give but to sing of praises to You in this blog and in my life. I love You, Jesus coz You have sacrificed all things, just for my sake. It's not my love for You.. It's Your Love for me.. You have always been inside my heart to teach me all things and there's no other gods like You who is willing to do everything for me..

Today, my close friend showed me a tablet in a Christian shop in Great World City. The words are so simple, yet so powerful.. It says.. Faith is not just believing that God can. It is what God will do.. Amazing, isn't it?? It's not only just by believing that God can.. It is what God will do for everyone of us who are in Christ! The loveliness of our Father and Jesus is simply irreplaceable.

Okie.. that's all for the day.. Time for rest so that can receive more from Daddy God. All praises be to Jesus for He is GREAT!!! Brain a bit stunned today coz of sleep debt.. Snooze!! I'm in my beautiful dream land now..

Cummin and Faith

Cool!! Thank you Holy Spirit!! Lately I was reading Isaiah 28 which was talking about "Listening to the Teaching of God". I was reading the entire chapter and the word cummin came out very strongly. Well, I have been asking the Lord to show me more about Cummin. There's something about it which draws me to attention and curiosity. Anyway, this is my own personal revelation. I may be wrong, and thus waiting for the confirmation.

Praise be to God, Jesus and Holy Spirit. Cummin was mentioned in only two verses throughout the bible but as another name in another verse. However, the symbolical representation of it is everywhere in the bible. Before I touch on that, first of all, what is cummin and what does it represents?

Cummin is a kind of fruit or seed of an umbelliferous plant, the Cuminum sativum, still extensively cultivated in the East (extracted from bible gateway dictionary). Anyway, Cummin is mentioned in Isaiah 28:25 - 27 and Matthew 23:23, while the other verse is in Ezekiel 4:9 which is known as "spelt".

Before I move on to the verses, there is no law or condemnation or whatsoever that doesn't talk much about grace. This is just something which I find interesting for more knowledge and that's all. Yah?

Isaiah 28:25 - 27

For the black cummin is not threshed with a threshing sledge, Nor is a cartwheel rolled over the cummin; But the black cummin is beaten out with a stick, And the cummin with a rod.

Matthew 23:23

"Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you pay tithe of mint and anise and cummin, and have neglected the weighter matters of the law: justice and mercy and faith. These you ought to have done, without leaving the others undone.

As it is mentioned in Matthew, I see that there are symbolical representation of each kind of spices here. Mint represents justice, anise represents mercy and cummin actually represents faith! So, when we talk about faith, it appears everywhere in the bible. Abraham typifies faith.

Well, as to continue about cummin and faith, I know that there's a lot more to dig and I've yet to come across. I'm waiting for the Holy Spirit to reveal. Let all the Glory goes to Jesus and Him alone. Well, there's something that's stuck somewhere and I've not figured out what it is. Will update this again once I get the answer.. Hee!!

Elated and thrilled!! - Zechariah 4

My heart was totally thrilled last night after listening to Pastor Matthew's confirmation. I was so amazed how the Holy Spirit was telling me so clearly about a portion of the book of Prophet Zechariah. It was in Zechariah 4. I believe most of you have seen this revelation too and if u have not, no fret!! The Holy Spirit will tell you even more!! yah?

Well.. I was reading into Zechariah 4 since Monday and had been reading the same chapter for a few days. Well.. I also had been trying to "argue" with the Holy Spirit on certain things in this chapter. Interestingly is this..The entire chapter 4 is talking about the Lampstand and the Olive Trees. What captured my attention was from verse 11 onwards..

Zechariah 4: 11- 14

Then I answered and said to him, "What are these two olive trees, one at the right of the lampstand and the other at its left?" And I further answered and said to him, "What are these two olive branches that drip into the receptacles of the two gold pipes from which the golden oil drains?" Then he answered me and said, " Do you not know what these are?" And I said, "No, my lord." So he said, "These are the two anointed ones, who stand beside the Lord of the whole earth."

WOW!! The lampstand here is the picture of Jesus!! Coz the lampstand in the bible is always referring to the Menorah which has 7 pipes (refer to Zech 4:2). The one in the middle is Jesus. Next, I also ask Daddy God who are the olive trees?? Just like Zechariah asked. Zechariah mentioned about the 2 olive trees, one at the right and the other at the left. This reminds me of the Mount of Transfiguration. Next, the Lord said in Verse 14 that the 2 olive trees are the 2 anointed ones, who stand beside the Lord of the whole earth.

Hmm!! Interesting.. Lord of the whole earth? Isn't He Jesus, the Creator of the whole earth? And who's the 2 anointed ones?? Well.. In the entire bible, who are the 2 most prominent anointed men?? Moses and Elijah! Moses as the deliverer and Elijah as the prophet! Initally, I was arguing with the Holy Spirit that how can the these two men actually be the anointed ones? Well, this was what the Holy Spirit told me.. What makes me think that they are not the anointed ones of God?? hahahaha.. Well.. I was eh.. stunned.. and said.. yah hor.. why not?? Both of them are highly anointed by Daddy God and both of them appeared at the Mount of Transfiguration with Jesus! If it's others like David, etc.. How come they don't appear at the Mount of Transfiguration? And also, the Holy Spirit pointed out to me that Moses and Elijah are the 2 anointed ones who STAND beside the Lord of the whole earth. Hey!!

Ok, let us take a short walk to the the Mount of Transfiguration, both Moses and Elijah stood beside Jesus! One on His right, and the other on His left! Moses being the deliverer and Elijah being the prophet. Another thing about Moses is the Law. The Law was given at Mount Sinai from God and it was Moses who brought the law down to the people. Now.. here comes.. Law and Prophecy had always been standing beside Jesus! Jesus came down to fulfil both the Law and the Prophesy!! Cool!! Zechariah actually saw that vision on the Mount of Tranfiguration where Jesus' face shone so brightly. It was accounted in Matt 17:3, Luke 9:30-31. The book of Zechariah was actually written before the last Old Testament book (Malachi). And it's talking so much about Jesus Himself and all that will come to pass. And Zechariah actually saw the vision that Jesus is coming to earth to fulfil the law and the prophecy and that had already happened 2000 years ago!! WOW!! WOW!! WOW!! This last portion was something which I didn't realise until now..

Hallelujah!! I was so thrilled when I was reading Zechariah. hahaha.. now I'm acting like Evelyn my dearie liao.. with her WOW WOW WOW!! okie.. I've got another one more thing to write in another new post.. That was something that I've received yesterday morning while travelling to office in the bus.. hee..

Wandering Wondering Thoughts

Thoughts had been flying around today and I was wondering how to make out of them. Things kindda different after since I'm in my new job scope.. Is it time for me to move on to other places? Well.. I remember Pastor Prince ever mentioned about the same scenario during one of the sermons before.

He did mention about people having to switch to a new job and they thought that the new job will be a better job for them. And, these people will meet a bigger giant in the new place. Apparently, looks like I'm one of those people. Things are handled very differently in this new dept that I just switched to. People with a good eloquence in talking tend to be on a higher ground. Suddenly, I felt so small in this new dept and I'm seeing a giant. Grasshopper effect. SHIT is the word to describe anyway..

Well, in this kind of situation.. I can't do anything as I have to wait for 2 yrs before I can do another job transfer within the same company. But, I'm not going to let this stupid, uncircumcised giant Philistine to take over my Father in Heaven and Jesus' Glory! They will have the final say in everything in my life and no evil shall befall on me or on my career.

Father in Heaven, You will take care of all things for me and I'm going to rest. Even when things don't look good, I'm still going to rejoice in You and rest in Your Arms for comfort. You'll squash out the giants in my career and life, for Your Hands are BIGGER than the wimpy giants. Jesus had already finished His Work on the cross. Good days are here now from this point onwards! Amen!

Valuation in the eyes of Daddy God

How we value Jesus is how we value ourselves.. This is one thing that hit my mind when I was attending a service on last Sat for the singles in my church. I thank Daddy God for such a wonderful church to attend and to listen to His Words. Many times, we tend to de-value ourselves and not realising that by de-valuing ourselves, that's also how other people will value us. Worst still, people will value us even lower than how we value ourselves.

Valuation is something that most of us tend to evaluate on objects and even people. How do we value an object or a person or rather.. how do we value ourselves? De-valuation, Re-valuation, No-Valuation?

Daddy God sees me highly esteemed, highly valued to the extent that I am priceless to Him coz my Jesus is greatly esteemed, greatly valued that He is the ultimate priceless gem. His Love, His Works, His Grace is so warm and whenever I ponder upon His Love for me, my heart warms up and felt the peace and joy within. Well, He doesn't see me as a failure in relationships or a terrible parent in time when I get attached and eventually married to the best guy that God has prepared for me.. HEE!!! Well.. muz think ahead mah..

Just recently, I was telling Daddy God that I want to start on a new Godly relationship and I want to love the guy that Daddy God is going to show me. The fruit eventually is the love I had for my future husband and that will be from our Daddy God. Well.. I'm concentrating more on Jesus rather than all these now. How much thinking abt it doesn't bring on anything with good fruits and may even end up in a very futile relationship. Well.. in a relationship, there must always be a third party and that's Jesus!! hahaha.. hey.. what are u thinking of?? :P juz teasing..

Anyway, I juz frowned in my office earlier after listening to one of the dumbest songs which the radio station was broadcasting.. Sometimes, worldly songs can really make me feel rather irritated esp the song "Sex Bomb". Geesh.. It sounds so awful and so idiotic to certain level and there are people who actually loved it. Grose..

I think I rather listen to the sermons or worship songs while working.. That'll perk me up than listening to the overhead music broadcasted from the radio stations.. YUCKS! okie.. better get back to work otherwise tonight got to stay until late.. BRR..

Whatever it is, I know Daddy God will bless me with an awesome week with perfect peace, and joy.. Amen!!

Love

wow.. it's been a long long time since my last blog.. :P hee.. I was too engrossed in the new Harry Potter book which my good friend had lent me. Took me a week's nite to finally finish the book and completed it last night.. Hmm.. a bit slow in reading.. sigh.. well.. I can try doing speed reading on the earlier books.. hahaha.. anyway, just some personal comments about the book and how I relate some parts of the book with the bible. I nearly cried after reading the end of the book that Dumbledore was killed!! ARGH!! Darn!! ok.. back to my topice before I start to go wandering, wondering.. Whenever I continue to read the book, I start to reflect back and to see how much Daddy God and Jesus have loved me. It has shed some light to me in certain manner.

I've always admired the creativity in J.K Rowling and her choice of words and sentences in the entire book. It has till now remained one of my favourite books and I'm looking forward to the last book (in which I heard so from my friends who also loved the story about Harry Potter). Whenever I start to read the book and also with the advice of my good friend, I will pray over.

It's not about magical words, magical potions or even Harry Potter that intrigue my interests to read on. There's a lot more to it. It's about love and how evil cannot overcome the world is because of love. There's a lot of emotions within. The greatest enemy of evil is love. HA! Anyway, though the book is not of the bible, I discovered that there are so many occasions that this book is talking about love, darkness, etc.. Something amuses me more is in this new book where I can find quite a few similarities to the bible and how Daddy God's and Jesus love are just like Harry Potter's parents' love for him. They sacrificed their lives to die so that he can live. His parents, esp his mother died out of her extreme love for her son, that nothing can strike her child as it is love that protected Harry Potter. Hey!! sounds familiar huh?? Jesus also died for me and His extreme Love for me that He died on the cross for me. It is His Love that protected me from the works of the devil. Hallelujah!! Jesus is so wonderful!!

Somewhere in the early chapter of the book where it says.. Lord Voldemort's word is law.. (this one has double meaning to me.. anyway, both interpretations are correct in the context..) okie.. now, this sounds like the devil.. The devil's words are law and he puts the Law into us to kill us. Interestingly, the life of this so-called Lord Voldemort is simply deprived of parental love and also his line heritage of evilness that moved him to dark side. That causes him to become the most evil wizard in the wizarding community and even the muggle (which actually means the non-wizarding community). During his younger days, he was actually a "gentleman" in his actions and words , but his heart is full of strife, hatred and evilness. Eh.. well.. doesn't look like the fruits of the heart. He is a very well-mannered person in his younger days but his words are placed to his own advantage in order to retrieve his own personal gain and knowledge.

Now, this is a real typical display of the hypocrisy in human beings. Be it Christians or not, everyone's in the flesh and we are weak whenever we are in the flesh.. A person can be "gracious", "loving" in his/her actions but not in his/her heart. Whatever is in the person's heart, it will show the person's character.

okie.. I will stop short of Harry Potter now.. Hee.. Now, I'm aiming for the next book to read and that is the chronicles of Narnia by Carl Lewis.. I'm waiting for the price to drop further before I buy.. :P I can't wait to lay my hands on that book!! Anyway, there's a show to be released at the end of December which is one of the books inside the chronicles of Narnia. That is The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.. okie dokie.. time for me to do some quiet time before I set out for the day!! Have a blessed weekend and I'll be back!!

My Solid Foundation

Now it's home alone time!! haha.. My parents are now sleeping in our holiday home in Port Dickson (Malaysia) right now.. oh man!! I wished I can take another 2 days leave to have that getaway.. hehehe.. anyway, I don't mind either. I've loads and loads of new stuffs to learn in my new job right now and it's getting very interesting.. I'm truly grateful to my Daddy God and Jesus for standing right beside me to cheer me on and help me in grasping knowledge. Jesus is indeed my Knowledge and Wisdom. Without Jesus, I'm nothing.. Indeed, He is my Solid Foundation.

I stand upon this Rock and nothing can tear me down from this Rock. Well, I had a day full of thinking about Jesus, talking to Him and singing praise songs, etc.. It had been a long time since I've done that and now I'm on cloud 9!! Hallelujah!!

Well.. now it reminds me of my first time home alone.. it was rather scary coz I hadn't experienced it before and that happened when I was 15 yrs old.. My parents went on a holiday together. Gee.. well.. quite an experience, I can say. However, I dun know how I managed to get thru those days but I do know now is how Daddy God had been watching over me since I was young. Gosh.. I really missed those days when I was in Sunday School, that my mom brought me to a church.

Interestingly, that church happened to be a Pentecostal church.. However, its doctrines are just like the Galatians. Sad to say, not many of them have gotten a breakthrough in their lives and most of the time, it seemed that they are living on the edge. However, thank God for His mercy and grace that He still took care of this church. I guess it's because of their constant prayer in the Spirit that moves the Holy Spirit into action. Well, how I wished that they will one day be able to see the full Gospel of Jesus Christ, as what Apostle Paul had been strongly preaching throughout his entire ministry.

It is so important for a church to be built on a solid foundation, lest they shall be tossed away by the strong winds and storms. I thank Daddy God for the current church that I'm attending and it has given me a lot of revelation knowledge so that my foundation can be strengthened in Him. He is my Foundation.. Praise be to Daddy God and Jesus!! Amen..

well, I just bought 2 fresh water crayfish and both of them had been fighting and shoving each other.. It's pretty fun to watch their movements esp the smaller crayfish. It likes to disturb the bigger one and ended up getting shoved aside. haha.. pretty funny.. Anyway, I haven't think of their names yet. Need to continue observing their movements before I decide on their names.. hee..

okie.. be blessed!!

In God's Eyes

something rather interesting that God had shown me earlier when I was listening to one of the praise worship album by Pastor Prince and also after reading my dearest friend's blog. How does God see our giants?

Well, a giant to us is always something big in which we always fear and kept putting ourselves in a position that we "are able to defeat" the giants on our own. But little to our own understanding, each time we face the giant, we will always freak out and run without letting God to fight the giant for us. God today showed me something that to Him, the giant is just a small fly in His Eyes and Hands. His Hands are so big that the fly ends up getting swatted by His Hand. So, who is big?? God's Hands are BIGGER than the giant that are small in His eyes..

So, how does that apply to the giants in my circumstances today?? Well, they are just like the small flies buzzing around irritatingly and in His eyes, they are small like flies. Now, I seek upon Daddy God that He will be the exterminator of these flies.. His Hands are so big that His Hands will just clap and the flies will juz get swatted between His Mighty Hands.. Hmm.. looks a bit funny like the cartoon but this is the fact that this is how I'm visualising Daddy God as my giant swatter! PIAK! and there goes the giants of my circumstances..

Right now, I'm still standing in the favor of Daddy God and I know He's always right in me to tell me of interesting things which I always love so much. When I was praying in the Spirit in the office this morning, I felt a rush of warmth in my heart and juz simply felt Him in my heart to assure me that things are ok. He had already taken care of all my needs, my wants, and my circumstances. The only one thing that is needful is to rest at His Feet.

I remember I saw this vision that I was hiding behind a wall, peeking out to take a look at Daddy God and Jesus. Well, the next thing I knew in my heart was that Daddy God waved to me to ask me to go forward to Him. I felt just like a little child whose parent was waving to the child to come forward. I took that step and went forward to Him and the next moment I knew was that His Arms were stretched out so wide to receive me. It was such a heart-melting moment and immediately I ran towards Him and hugged Daddy God. He carried me on His Shoulders and patted me on my back, just like a daddy lifted his darling daughter on his shoulder, hugging her and gave her a loving pat to assure her that she is safe in his hands.

Daddy Daddy Daddy God!! Jesus!! You are so wonderful and You have been assuring me in this manner all the time. I love you coz You love me more than anything else in the world. You loved me to the extreme like as though there's no other people in the world. Lord Lord.. You are always the loving God who loves everyone and me.

My heart broke whenever I see You hung on the cross coz it was Love that put You up there to die for me. Your Love, Your Heart stretched out to me like a parent receiving the child into his loving arms.. Daddy God.. Lord Jesus.. I love you!!

Amen...

Booting out Hagar and her son Ishmael

Yesterday's sermon was so good and I had received so much good stuffs after listening to the Word of God. Pastor Aage from Norway is truly another man of God who preached good sermons of the grace of God. He was sharing with us about the two covenants (Galatians 4:21 - 5:1). When we are in the old covenant, that is to bring the law into our lives, we are putting ourselves into bondage. That is having Hagar and Ishmael under the same roof as Abraham, Sarah and Isaac.

Over here the bible is making the symbolical comparison between Hagar and Sarah (meaning Hagar is of the old covenant which is from the Mount Sinai where the 10 Commandments came from and Sarah being the symbolical representation of Grace which is of the new covenant that God had set upon Himself to us). I love v28 where it says that "Now we, brethren, as Isaac was, are children of promise". This means that we are of the freewoman which is of Sarah, which is the symbolical representation of Grace which is of God and we are the children of promise! Hallelujah!

So, next is in v30 where it says "Cast out the bondwoman and her son, for the son of the bondwoman shall not be heir with the son of the freewoman." This simply means that we are to cast out the law from our lives and when we cast out the law, we are in grace. Now we are in the New Covenant which is the grace covenant.

Many Christians are still in the state of confusion when they mix law and grace together. In Genesis 21, when Isaac was weaned out of his milk (symbolical meaning that we also weaned out of the law and smack ourselves right into knowing that we are the Righteousness of God in Christ), that was the time when Sarah told Abraham to cast out Hagar and her son from the house. God also told Abraham to listen to Sarah when Abraham was sorta "pissed off" by Sarah's remarks to cast Hagar out of the house.

So, what does that mean to us?? It means that God wants us to also cast out the bondwoman and her son out of our lives and live knowing that we are like Isaac who is heir of everything. Another thing that was shared also that Pharaoh wanted Sarah coz she's beautiful. However, God didn't allow that to happen. Pharaoh represents the devil, Sarah represents grace and Abraham represents faith coz he has faith in God for everything in his life (Romans 4:1-4). So, in this context, the devil is trying to pull grace away from faith and faith away from grace. Why is it that the devil is so into putting the law into us?? well.. Luke 8:12 says it all.. "Those by the wayside are the ones who hear; then the devil comes and takes away the word out of their hearts, lest they should believe and be saved."

Cool!! And to add on, Romans 10:4 "For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes." So, who are righteous?? We believers are the righteousness of God in Christ. And Christ is the end of the law which He had already fulfilled for all of us. He died on our behalf, He fulfilled the law on our behalf and that is His Love for us!

Knowing that how much He loved us, do you think u will still want to commit any sins?? Esp for those who still want to dispute this that "oh.. since there's grace, that means we can continue in our sins". Well, Paul disputed that with the people.. Anyway, I'll not go into it too much detail yet.. This is another thing which people always like to dispute..

Well, after worshipping the Lord in the Hokkien service today, the Lord showed me something that touched my heart so much.. He was showing me that for every stroke of beating that He took unto His own Body, He said this to me "Sharon, this is the beating that I'm willing to bear for you. Every stripe taken is My Love extended out to you. I want you to know how much I love you." Each time I see Jesus taking a stroke, He took it for me on my behalf. The same also when He was hung on the cross. It was His Love for me that He willingly bore it for me. It was His Love for me that He willingly became poor for my sake, so that I don't have to go through any single curses, poverty or sicknesses and diseases. None of these will come to me coz Jesus bore them all for me on the cross..

Like what Pastor Aage was saying, all of us must move from Mount Sinai to Calvary. Well, we must not move back from Calvary to Mount Sinai, lest the works of our Lord Jesus Christ became of no effect in our lives.

Well, this is my personal understanding of what the sermon is about and I'm not sure about others. But I do hope that this will help release whatever burden you have in your heart.

I was also having another heart-to-heart talk with Jesus and He asked me what am I going to do about my enemies? Well, it's a very hard thing to do and say, I told the Lord that I will still want to love them because You also love them like You love me. Not by my efforts but by Him, through Him and with Him, He will bring my heart to love people rather than fulfilling for my own selfishness. Well.. I will not be able to love my enemies, frankly speaking. But I'm going to ask the Lord to help me.

Hallelujah! All Praises due to Jesus!! Amen!!

Fireworks on 14/08/2005

Fireworks Display

Moving Boat @ Boat Quay

CBD @ Nite

Hmm.. well.. photos are not spectacular in any ways but juz wanting to put up for some display.. juz find that photography is very interesting and thanks to Evelyn who taught me some settings which I din remember. (",)

More photos

Twin Towers (Taken in KL) on 09/08/2005

Bedtime Blog

Right before I take my rest for the nite, guess I wanna write some stuffs. After days and months of thinking over life, I thank God for a blessed life and how much He has always been loving me even when I don't feel His Presence near me. I guess I was just too loud in my mind and thoughts to listen to His voice. Pastor Prince has always been telling us to keep focusing on the cross whenever we are having any doubts in our hearts.

Had been trying to do so many times for the past few months but was unable to focus until recently. Well, things are slowly getting back to the norm. Recently, I read a testimony about restoration of perfect eye vision, I told Daddy God that I wanted also to have perfect eye vision so that I don't have to change glasses every year due to the swapping of degree from one eye to the other.. And also neither do I want to wear any contact lenses coz I have dry eyes. If Daddy God can heal her, I'm also doubly sure that Daddy God will heal me from my myopia and astigmatism. Jesus' Blood had been shed to purchase me from death, and nothing bad can cling unto me. So, that means perfect vision is for me, not short-sightedness.

Well.. first thing always got to come first.. That is to seek His Kingdom and His Righteousness first. Well, I don't know how long it'll take, but I believe Daddy God will heal me of this short-sightedness. Since He can heal me of my backpain, so can He do so also for my eyesight. Whether I'm healed or not, I'm still Jesus' beloved.

okie.. that's all my mind can think of writing for the night..

A new day

Finally!! A new day @ work.. Today's my first day in my new job. Had been running around the office the entire morning and now resting as it's lunch hour. Had been wondering what to do for the day, but I'll just rest and relac one corner first. As I'll be working on a project, gotta read up a lot on how to manage projects. Haha.. This is going to be very first time to handle projects.. Well.. Now I really totally depend on Jesus to help me and to give me all the knowledge that I need to help me strive in this team..

Gee.. There had been a lot of changes in the IT Dept here and seemed that there are so many people having to switch their job scopes. The new environment here is very different from the previous and still adjusting to the new change. Anyway, it won't take long for me to get adjusted coz I'm going to rest in Jesus to work things out for me. I'm still the Beloved Christian in whom Jesus loved so much that He will never let me be sadden by anything at all. Praise Jesus for His Wonderful Love for me..

I'm the Christian whom Jesus loved most above any others.

Ha! This is the ultimate confession and I believe the full extent of Jesus' Love for me that I am His most Beloved of all. hee.. yes, Jesus loves all human coz if He hadn't love anyone, He wouldn't have died for us. And to top it all, Jesus died my death. He died on my behalf so that I can have life. Today's sermon is simple and yet so powerful.

The only thing we have to focus on is how much Jesus loves us. When we were having our Holy Communion, I started to see and focus the love of Jesus on me alone. That He was hung on the cross, looking down towards me into my eyes, to tell me this, "my dearest Sharon.. This is the death that I am willing to die for you, so that you can have life." My eyes started to tear and I was so deeply touched by His Love for me.

Jesus! Jesus! You died on the cross for me with all the lacerations on your body and you were despised, spat on and mocked at. You bore them all for me so that I will never experience any of these. Your Love is far greater than anybody else's love.

Daddy God, thank you for Your most willing sacrifice of Your Beloved Son, Lord Jesus, who willingly died for me, and took all the curses, judgement and punishments on my behalf. His Blood cleansed me so clean until You find no speck of sin in me, coz His Blood washed me clean until I'm as white as snow. Thank you Daddy God that You have made me the Righteousness of God in Christ, not by my actions, behaviour or words. But by the obedience of my Lord Jesus, that He fulfilled all the 10 Commandments and laws for me. Even when I sin in the past, present or future, I know I'm still being loved coz You will never count them against me at all, for the Blood of Jesus had already washed me perfectly clean. Thank You Daddy God. Nothing is more perfect than His Love and finished work on the cross. Amen..

I'm touched!

Hallelujah!! I was so happy today that it's finally the last day in the old team and I'm embarking to a new job scope on Monday. I thank Daddy God for a good and smooth transition. Though I'm gonna miss my team-mates, I'm still looking forward to the new job. It will be effective on coming Monday.

However, this is not the only thing that I rejoice. Now I'm rejoicing that the Lord is definitely going to give me a breakthrough in my finances very soon. Today my pastor was praying over for someone in the overflow room who had a $50k debt will be set free and he also included people who are also in almost the same situation but of a lesser amount. Hallelujah! That means I'm included! Daddy God didn't leave me out!! He included me into the promises!! WHOPPIE!! I claimed it and told Daddy God that it's also for me! Yes! It's for me too!!

Amen! Amen! Amen! Amen!

Patience throughout..

Gosh.. been sitting in front of the pc for abt 5 mins trying to think of what to write in the blog. Nothing came out of my mind but quite blank. Anyway, the only thing I have to thank Daddy God for is the ultimate grace that I had a very peaceful day at work. The day is pretty slow moving and perhaps it's due to the fact that I'm moving on to my new team. I didn't "bite" my team leader and thanks to Daddy God for the peace. Well, I oso thank Daddy God for telling me gently to be more patient through many means. Well.. I can't do it without Daddy God's Wisdom and help. So, I rest in Him instead.

Nothing better to write, so shall write abt my day instead.. I had a meeting with my new team mates and was enjoying them around. I can sense some form of teamwork which is quite lacking in my current team. Well, I'm praying for my current teammates to be closer and it'll be a very fulfilling one to have a strong bond with each other.

In fact, I'm truly grateful to Daddy God for sending people in my life to be with me. So cute.. Today, somehow when I was talking to another colleague of mine about my ex-manager who is in Auckland now, I nearly wanted to cry again coz I seriously missed her so much.. Though it's only a phone call away to hear her voice, I still want to give her some of her own time. I totally respect her a lot especially for her perserverance and being so caring towards people. I pray for her salvation and her family too. I thank Daddy God so much for protecting her and I want to constantly sprinkle the blood of Jesus on her and her family. Likewise, I want to do for my own family too..

Well... Life still gotta continue. Anyway, I'll get to see her again next year when she comes back to Singapore. Ha!

Ok.. now I have a question in mind.. as far as i can remember, when Jesus was on this earth as a Man before He was cruxified and resurrected, does He still love the Pharisees, the Saducees, the Scribes, etc, as much as He loves the sinners? Well, the answer is yes! He had raised the girl who's dad is a Pharisee from the dead. Jesus knew how much the father loves his daughter very much that he wanted her to be well and alive (despite the fact that the father is a Pharisee). He still went on to raise the little girl from her sleep. Though Jesus had a problem with this group of law-keeping ppl and was angry with them, He will still continue to heal the loved ones of the these ppl. Amazing! His Love is not bounded by anything at all, not by rank, nor by race, nor even of the person's personality. Jesus' love was never stopped by any circumstances whatsoever.

Pretty interesting.. :D

Okie.. time to bunk in.. Snooze...

Passion of Jesus

Matthew 15:32 - Then Jesus called his disciples to him and said, "I feel sorry for these people. They have been here with me for three days, and they have nothing left to eat. I don't want to send them away hungry, or they will faint along the road."

This is how passionate Jesus is towards the people. Not to mention about how the people actually followed Him for 3 days. Jesus will still be passionate towards anyone coz He's always the caring Lord who takes care of His sheeps. He will always never let any of His sheeps to go hungry and ended up fainted somewhere.

I thank God for a shelter over my head, having home-cooked food, able to talk to my parents daily, providing me with the means to buy whatever I want, having close friends whom I can really pour out my sorrows, fears, and joy, and ultimately, Jesus Himself to be with me all the time.

Most of the mornings, my mom will always come into my room to tell me some of the previous day's events that I find that it's so funny at times.. I really have to depend on God's Wisdom to help me be more cool-temper in the morning, though I always have the tendency of "biting" ppl when they disturb me in my sleep.. hahaha.. Whatever it is, I always appreciate my mom. Though she can be irritating at time, I still love her very much. Coz there's no other moms who will do that to me!! hahaha.. :P

Daddy God, I thank You that You love me always, so that I can also love my parents. They really mean a lot to me everyday. Without them around, I find that life is really a blank.. Thank You Daddy God for protecting my family all the days of their lives.. Amen!!

Relaxed Mode

Finally my biting days are over.. hahaha.. meaning I dun have to "bite" my team leader for her demands anymore.. Well.. hmm.. grace grace.. :P Anyway, I have no hard feelings for her actually. Juz being a disgruntled teammate that hates demanding requests that will cheese more people off. hahaha.. But I still thank Daddy God for an amazing day of peace at work and enjoyment with my other team mates.

Now I'm more in my R.O.D mode as I'm waiting my time to move over to my new dept, new team. I'm looking forward to a more challenging and newer job scope which I had wanted to go for. Furthermore, I'll be working very closely with my ex-boss again.

Well.. After months of "torture" in the current dept, it's really sweet to taste freedom again. Though people of the world will say that "Aiyah!! U go into another dept is also to clean other ppl's shit". Well.. They can say that but I know my Daddy God knows better. He'll definitely make other ppl clean the shit for me.. hahaha.. no pun intended.. Well, Jesus will be my Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding. How can I not depend on Him to help me in my work?? No way.. I can't live without Jesus in my life. He's more important than anyone else.

Jesus has always been my Helper even when I did not commune with Him and each moment that I did not commune with Him, He will be missing me a lot lot more.. Amazing and my heart melts whenever I know that He misses talking to me. In fact, I miss talking to Him oso (though not all the time.. to be honest..) hee.. ** Sheepish grin **

Diet watching

Gosh.. Looks like got to watch my diet from now on.. No idea what sort of food that I'll have to take more. The only way is to ask Daddy God for guidance. Seemed that I've been taking bee-hoon almost every weekday morning and it's pretty unhealthy coz it's fried. However, I took quite a fair bit of vege during lunch which minus off the rice. And then indulge in home-cooked food which is ultimately tasty (depending on who cooks what..) Anyway, whatever it is, I still enjoy my food.

Thank God that I'm not like my Labbie.. Everyday feeds only on prawns (though it's a delicacy to humans.. haa..) Anyway, many people have been asking me whether I'll eat my Labbie after it dies. Hell no! Too precious to eat it. Anyway, the life span of this crayfish (actually Labbie is a crayfish coz lobsters cannot survive on fresh water), is 2 years. Gee.. Juz the same as my hamster.. However, I've heard that hamsters may be able to survive longer and there was a write-up by someone before. I pray that my hamster can live long enough, though it may be erhm.. well.. single.. no choice ah.. later come out too many babies, I pengz..

Burnt by own's fury

haha.. Is this going to be another day of frustration at work? I'm rejecting this statement in Jesus' Name. I'm still the Righteousness of God in Christ regardless of my actions, and behaviour. Well.. Got frustrated by someone again and kindda cannot wait to get out of this team which is only 4 more days.

Anyway, forget about that.. Yesterday, I was kindda puzzled over a few bible verses. Well, I still had a pretty interesting moment reading them. Juz kindda wondering how come in John 3:13 where Jesus said no man has ascended to Heaven... and yet in 2 Kings, Elijah actually ascended to Heaven on a whirlwind? So, what's the difference in these 2 ascensions?

If we put it in context of positional statement that Elijah was a prophet, so how come no other prophets were taken up to Heaven like Elijah? If there are, then the bible would have specially mentioned it. But the other prophets actually got martyred instead (not sure if all of them except Elijah - coz I still haven't finished reading the bible.. Good GRIEF! I can actually finish reading books after books of Harry Potter and yet not the bible.. Hee.. Anyway, there's no condemnation.. Harry Potter books got no significance to my life except the story line is very interesting. Well, still no condemnation coz Daddy God wants me to digest as much as possible with more revelational knowledge.)

So, can we actually put it in such context that Elijah was taken up to Heaven by God and no man was taken up to Heaven by God (meaning unless they are saved, they cannot ascend to Heaven yet until the death and resurrection of Jesus). And as we have known, Elijah is a picture of Jesus who also ascended to Heaven after days from His Resurrection. In this case, before the death and resurrection of Jesus, no body went up to Heaven at all. And, those people who died were juz "sleeping" until the day of ascension.

Or am I thinking nonsense again.. anyway, mind wanders around today. This morning was a pretty yucky morning. I believe my afternoon is going to be better and more peaceful coz I'm still in the favour of God.

Wonderful Jesus, Wonderful Cross, Perfect Sacrifice

Many times in my life, I used to think how to have a life that's peaceful and joyful? Well, the answer is right in front of me and that's Jesus. He is my All in all. Everything that I need is all in Him. I had a very peaceful and joyful day. It all started from the morning. Normally, I don't have the habit of reading the bible in the morning when I wake up and it's the same this morning. However, I din let that bother me coz Jesus is still within me in my heart.

After settling all my stuffs in the morning, I headed for church alone as my mom had already made her way for church. :P (Kindda lazy to get out of the house too early.. though it's already 10am. Initially, I didn't really want to go to church coz of wanting to laze at home. But thank God, He gave me the urge to go. hee..) Anyway, I took my own sweet time, strolled down to the bus stop. The bus came a few minutes later. When I reached my destination at the MRT station, the NEL train came within 2 mins. Thank God for the empty seats during that timing and I can at least sit down to open up the bible to read. So, I happen to flip to John 4 where the bible was talking about the Samaritan woman meeting her Messiah. I was totally engrossed in the passage and was sorta imagining the scene where Jesus was talking to the Samaritan woman and how He was so energetic after ministering to the lady.

Somehow, I started to imagine how Jesus became so energetic when He started to minister to me in my life and questions that I had posed to Him. It was fun visualising it. Well, my visualising ended after a short moment as I've reached my destination. When I got out of the train, I was so blessed. I didn't know that it was pouring outside and I hadn't brought my umbrella. I didn't have to worry about getting wet as my entire journey was sheltered until to the church. Now it came to my remembrance how Daddy God will hide me under His Wings to protect me from harm. It's really amazing that He showed me how much He loved me.

During the Hokkien service, Pastor Mark mentioned the 7 times when Jesus' Blood was shed at different times. It's interesting!!
1. When He was praying in the Garden of Gethsamene, His Blood mingled with sweat and dropped to the ground.
2. During the time when He was sent for scourging, His back was scourged to the extent that no flesh was left on His Body.
3. Before He was carrying His Cross to Golgatha, His Head was thrusted with a crown of thorns.
4. When He reached Golgatha, His Left Hand was nailed.
5. His Right Hand was nailed next.
6. Both of His Feet were nailed to the cross.
7. Lastly, after He died, the soldier pierced His Side.

It was a perfect sacrifice that He had done and the perfectness of the judgement and punishments were upon Him who willingly took them for us. We actually deserved to be hung on the cross but He took our place. He became our scapegoat. Sin that He did not commit, sin that He did not know of any.. A Lamb that was sacrificed for my sake. Oh boy.. Where on earth or universe will a God sacrifice Himself so willingly for me?? Only Jesus! All because He loves me too much that He rather suffer them for me so that I don't have to go through all these..

After the Hokkien Service, my mom and I continued on to the 4th English service. My pastor started to preach and it's about "Abundance of Grace + Gift of Righteousness = Reigning in life". It's amazing that we, as believers in Christ, have the abundance of grace and also have the Gift of Righteousness which means that we will reign in life. So, we have to always keep telling ourselves that we are still the Righteousness of God in Christ, not by our actions or obedience, but by our Lord Jesus who is our Obedience. He had fulfilled all the 10 commandments, the laws so that we will not be bound by the law anymore.

It's His amazing grace that saved us from the condemnation of the accuser. Like what Paul says it is the condemnation that kills. The accuser will accuse and condemn until the person dies.. To combat it, keep confessing the Word of God that I'm the Righteousness of God in Christ, not by my actions..

okie.. time to bunk unto the bed.. it's late and looking forward to a brand new day!! Amen!!

Melancholy or Merry?

To be melancholy or to be merry.. A choice that I always have to make. Whenever I can, I will definitely choose merry. Coz that's the only thing that a true born-again Christian should have. There are so many lessons in life that we can learn. Through all these learning, and if our eyes were fixed on the One who saves (ie Jesus), life will definitely be sweet even if it's bitter. However, if our eyes were fixed on our own problems and having to allow constant reminders of our own problems from ppl, life will end up nothing coz the Light wasn't able to penetrate through the problems that are very bleak and dark.

Whatever it is, I just have to let Daddy God mend my heart. Only His Love can mend the wounds that I was afflicted with. Jesus was afflicted on the cross for my sake. Nothing can take away the love He had shown upon me. Thank You Jesus for being so alive in my heart. Since He has conquered death, so have I conquered death in Christ. He is my Everything, my Jehovah Jireh, that is my Provider.

Another of my pet! It's Ash!!

Drinking from the "river" of "living" water..


In The Playground

Eh.. Sleeping "Beauty"

Breezy Morning

It's still morning now and the wind in my room is pretty strong.. It's a moment of enjoying the wind flowing past my cheeks.. ehh.. though the sky looks a bit black.. hahaha. taking this time to pen down a few thoughts or so.. I'm glad for the past few days that my friends are having lotsa revelational knowledge from Daddy God. I've been ministered to by them and it's refreshing to listen to a new perspective of the bible verses.

I remembered Jou mentioned that @ the Mount of Tranfiguration, there were two persons with Jesus.. One is Moses and the other is Elijah. Moses is a deliverer and Elijah was taken up to Heaven on a chariot of fire.. Combining both of them together, it's the picture of our Lord Jesus Christ! Amen, Jou!! Jesus is a deliverer and He ascended up to Heaven on a cloud..

Ok.. now meet my new member! Starie! My new baby star.. She may look a bit sleepy but very friendly.. Her smile is always there to brighten ur night.. :D

Starry Starry Morn! Starine! (that's Evelyn's Star's name) Meet Starie!

A monster Lobster

Ha! This lobster belongs to my colleague (the one who gave me Labbie.).. Cool!! This is sure a big sized one..

Answered Prayer

I'm gonna dance liao!! My prayer for focusing on projects had been answered!! I just had my 1st meeting with my new team and I was enjoying the entire session. It was so interesting. And the best part of it all, my new boss mentioned that our team will be focusing more on projects, rather than system support. It's totally awesome!! Coz that means we don't have to be on 24x7 support anymore. It will be totally outsourced to another company to handle the daily problem reporting. WOO HOO!!! Then our main priority will be in projects!! Hallelujah!! That's something wonderful and I had been praying for this! Daddy God has answered my prayer!!! WOO HOO!!! ** leaping for joy **

At least now, I'm able to make use of the knowledge that I've gained when I did my degree course. This is definitely a major leap for me in terms of my job scope and career. I remembered recently that my heart has been telling me that when I get into the new team, my job level will be like an Assistant Manager level and no longer being a Senior Officer level. Wow!! When my new boss mentioned it, I literally lit up like a shining light bulb. He was sorta finds it a bit funny anyway.. hahaha.. but I dun care!! At least, it's going to be a totally new thing for me to explore. A new challenge and new things to learn!!

WHOOPIEE!!! Daddy God is ultimate Daddy!! Yippie!!

Thinking Thoughts

Days of peace and joy can only be given by Daddy God and I'm blessed today with peace and joy in my heart. My heart was so relaxed during office hour as most of my tasks had been completed. The only things left for me to do for the next few days are handing over, packing my stuffs and moving them to my new desk.

However, the best of all, Daddy God gave me a very pleasant gift. My ex-boss is going to be my main user whom I'll be liaising with when I go to my new team on August 1st. If I have the chance to work under him again, I guess I won't want to let that opportunity go coz ultimately he is one of my best boss I've ever worked for. Probably, I should be more open to my new boss but I won't know what's gonna happen. So, I'll let Daddy God help me in this.

Fear had been setting into me lately and there were so many negative reports regarding the new dept that I'm going in. Anyway, I'm not going to give in to the fear. For it is written,

For God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love and of a sound mind."

Anyway, I pray that I can also have more opportunities to travel overseas for work when I'm in the new team. That will expose me to a better and higher ground and it's going to benefit me a lot more.

Right now, it's like a toddler trying to take its first steps. My learning curve will shoot up real high and I see this as an ultimate challenge, for I know that Jesus is my Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding. He's gonna be right at my side to give me the understanding that I need. Daddy God, I'm leaning on You this time.

Some of my colleagues warned me about my bonus that will be affected next year. I'm not going to care about it anymore coz it's not my efforts to get the performance bonus. It's God's blessings that my bonus comes. I thank Daddy God that He will work all things out for good.

Romans 8:28 - And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose."

Praise the Lord for His Goodness and Faithfulness. His Everlasting Kindness endures forever and He dwells in me.

Romans 8:11 - But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you.

Hmm.. now I came upon this verse..

Isaiah 37:16 - "O LORD of hosts, God of Israel, the One who dwells between the cherubim, You are God, You alone, of all the kingdoms of the earth. You have made heaven and earth.

This sounds very familiar.. "The One who dwells between the cherubim.." Isn't that Jesus?? He's dwelling right between the 2 cherubims on the Ark of the Covenant in the Holy of Holies?? Interesting enuf..

Pretty interesting comics..

My Pet Lobster

Now let me introduce my pet Lobster "Labbie"! Dun know whether it's a male or a female.. Anyway, it doesn't matter..

Hiding behind the filter

Searching for food

Labbie The Sleeping "Beauty"

Sun Tanning

Adopted Fetuses

Hey.. take a look @ these fetuses. Very cute..
These are my adopted fetuses from Fetusmart..

There's no pun intended for this adoption of the Jesus fetus. Anyway, it looks more of an angelic fetus rather.. :D

My Jesus Fetus

Pretty cute giraffe fetus. I like its spots that makes this creature very unique on its own.

My Giraffe Fetus

This fetus had too much chocolates on Easter Day, I guess..

My Easter Bunny Fetus

Uniquely defined black spots that makes a cow looks interesting enuf..

My Cow Fetus

Ha! Any one wants a poison fetus?? Pretty cute actually.. :P

My Poison Fetus

Cute eh?

WOOO HOOO!!

WOOO HOOO!!! I was so elated! When I got home in the afternoon yesterday, my mom told me that my sis-in-law agreed to go for our church's Mid-Autumn Festival celebration. And the best part of it is that she also agreed to pull her own mom and sis along to church. WOW WOW!! Amazing!!! This is the best time to spread the good Gospel to them. I'm praying that my dad will also come along. Let the Lord be the One to touch his heart to come along.. kekeke..

Anyway, I remembered our dear Alpha leader Irene mentioned that we may even be serving on that day! I was praying that we can get to serve!!! Hee!! :P

Well.. Now it's 3plus am and I'm still beary alert. Though there's no-one in the office, I'm able to have the peace to do my work, enjoy the music and peep a little into my bible.. HEE!



I remembered Acts 28 when Apostle Paul was on his journey to Rome, there was a shipwreck on Malta. So, unable to continue to Rome at that moment, Paul started to minister to the people on this island.

Prior to that, while Paul was gathering the wood for fire, a viper came out and fastened onto his hand.. (Imagine a snake dangling from his hand.. Looks kindda funny..) :P Interestingly, the natives actually said that "No doubt this man is a murderer, whom, though he has escaped the sea, yet justice does not allow to live." They were also expecting him to swell up or suddenly fall down dead but looked at him for a very long time.... blah blah blah (looks like their eyes oso going to pop out.. hahaha..)

ok.. This one however tells me something also, that Paul is in Christ. So, it sorta comes into my mind that hey.. we are also in Christ. If nothing happens to Paul after getting bitten by the viper, the venom cannot harm us in any ways. Christ is in us and we are in Christ. In this sense, Christ's Blood is running inside of us. As our body is also the Temple of God and no harmful elements can actually survive within.

Now it brings to my remembrance that Pastor Prince did preached about some deadly viruses that were spreading like wild fire in some countries and the viruses did not survive on the skin of an evangelist who also understood the Grace message and he was also ministering to the sick people who had the viruses.

Isaiah 58:8 - 9 "Then your light shall break forth like the morning. Your healing shall spring forth speedily, And your righteousness shall go before you; The glory of the LORD shall be your rear guard. Then you shall call, and the LORD will answer; You shall cry, and He will say, 'Here I am'.....

AAAHHHHH!!!! This one really touches my heart.. I don't have to do anything to have that mentioned above coz Jesus had already done all that is needed. Jesus is my Righteousness, not by my behavior, nor my words, nor my actions.. Whenever I call upon the Lord, He will answer and whenever I cry out for Him, He will always say 'Here I am'. Oh man! Oh Lord my God!! Lord Jesus! Whenever I cry out to You, You never fail to say 'Here I am, my child'. Sobz Sobz (with joy!)

Magnificent Grace

Praise be to our Daddy God forever! It's right early in the morning and now I can take this short little time to write my blog in the office. Ha! Well, I thank Daddy God for the smooth transition of the system implementation of the new changes which has financial impact.

I thank Daddy God also for the Strength that He had graciously provided me with plenty that I was able to serve yesterday with full enthusiasm. It was simply awesome about the way that Daddy God works. I was actually having a very bad headache due to the late night support in the office since Saturday morning. Right before our time to serve during the 3rd and 4th Sunday Services, the Holy Spirit touched my heart to pray in tongues. So, I prayed in tongues during the worship time in our team briefing session. The headache still didn't totally eased but got much better.

However, I just claimed on the Word of God that by His Stripes I'm healed! And I went to my usher team-mates and told them that my energy is back for serving!! Amen! Well, the next thing to do is to take the Holy Communion and that is to make me remember what Jesus had paid for me on the cross. Surely He had bore my sicknesses on the cross and therefore, my headache should be off my head. I took the Holy Communion during the 3rd Service. I was so happy and the headache just simply went off!! Praise be to God for His Healing! I continued to take the Holy Communion again on the 4th Service and that is to remember His Love for me that He Himself bore all sicknesses and diseases for me on the cross.

Well, again.. Thanking Daddy God for the strength to allow me to keep awake the entire night to do the system checks and also for a very smooth transition.

Okie dokie.. Will update further later in the day (if I'm still awake).. :P

Ultimate Grace

The joy of the Lord is my strength. This is a verse that people have always been telling me that "the joy of the Lord is my strength" and it is a verse in which I can hardly understand earlier. I guess the Holy Spirit just prompted me this when I was resting and also right after my bible study in church. When I'm focused in the Lord, there's an ultimate grace from Daddy God that my heart feels at peace and be joyful.

This verse "The joy of the Lord is my strength." kept ringing inside my head. When I break the verse into portions, it's telling me that dwelling in the Lord and knowing of His Promises for me bring forth the joy in my heart and it's drawing me closer to Him alone. His Words, His Promises and His Answers to my prayers are far better than material gains that the world is trying to achieve. By knowing that I'm still the Righteousness of God in Christ alone and confessing this all the time, all things will start to chase after me and not the other way round. This is what I've learned during bible study today is to seek first His Righteousness and all things will come. I don't have to keep confessing for those material gains. They will just come! Just keep confessing that I'm the Righteousness of God in Christ!

Now this brings the joy inside my heart and that gives me the strength. Not that I'm going after the material gains. Daddy God knows what I need and what I want. Anyway, now i understood what the verse really means. When I start to concentrate on Jesus being my Righteousness and I'm the Righteousness of God in Christ, all good things like prosperity, health, wholeness, etc will start to come into my life. Jesus is the joy that this verse is talking about. Also, the joy of knowing brings strength and all these actually come from the Lord. These are the joys that the verse is trying to say. Getting that joy after listening and knowing what the Lord has in store for me, really strengthens me in many areas like strength in faith, physically, emotionally and mentally. "Can't really explain totally in words"

I used to think "the joy of the Lord.." yah.. In literal sense, the Lord is joyful but how can He be the One being joyful (but not me) and yet He can become my strength when I'm not joyful in my heart!?!? Something doesn't seem to click right and I asked the Lord to explain to me. Now I start to understand and thought it will be good to pen it down somewhere, some place..

okie.. time to snooze.. But before that, I thank Daddy God for His Ultimate Grace. I had a pretty hard day at work trying to resolve problems caused by others and entertaining to a loadful of queries from so many colleagues. Gosh.. All these really wears me down and initially I was thinking of not coming for bible study. Almost at the end of the day when I was packing to leave, I was held back by my colleagues from another department to assist in co-ordinating of some issues. I was the only one left from my team in the office who can help in the co-ordinating. I was kindda very reluctant coz I want to run off for bible study.

Well, I got a little grouchy but hid my grouchy voice and stayed on to help. At the same time, I told the Lord that even if I'm going to end my work at 7.30pm, I'm going to take a cab and rush to church by 8pm to receive His Words. I told the Lord that I don't want to stay on any later than 7.15pm actually. Well, I made the last call to my colleague and amazingly, he told me that they will settle the rest of the issue on Friday instead. I was so happy and then immediately switched off my pc and ran out of the building to catch a cab.

During my journey from Tampines to Suntec, I was sorta grumbling and kept wondering how come today seemed to be a day of fire-fighting in the office. Was totally drained out physically and mentally. Frankly, my mood got the better of me, I started to think of bad thoughts of Daddy God and asked Him how come He didn't stop those problems from happening since I've already made my prayers in the morning!?!?! Thank God that the Holy Spirit actually prompted to me in my heart saying that it's not Daddy God and I remembered.. oh yah.. it's the stupid devil that's putting up all the little fires so that I will be totally drained by trying to put out the fires, and will not go for bs to receive the Words that Daddy God had in store for me. Praise be to Daddy God that He gave me the strength to head on to church regardless on my physical state. I've received the Word that Daddy God had also been telling me during the past few days.

Now after all the receiving of the Word, my heart was at peace and joyful. It was then that I started to understand "The joy of the Lord is my Strength." Thank you Daddy God. I love you, not because I can love you. It's because You first love me so that I can love you back. Thank you Daddy God.. I thank You also that I will receive more revelational knowledge and to have that revelational wisdom, plus wisdom at work and daily life decisions. Jesus is my Wisdom, my Knowledge, my Prosperity, my Health and my Everything! Amen..