The Infinite Amount of Love from God

I know I've went missing for quite a while now.. I have a lot of things to say this time and looks like it'll take some time. The first thing I want to say is that ALL GLORY AND PRAISES TO JESUS CHRIST!!

Well.. U muz be wondering how come like that? I can say is that most of us are unable to really understand that kind of love that Daddy God has for us all the time. I haven't understood it until lately. My dad just passed away on 14th Sept 2005. He was playing a good game of golf and he suddenly collapsed on Hole 12. And he passed away on the way to the hospital. When I received the news, I was amazed that my heart was pretty peaceful and calm over it. Only when the undertaker came knocking at my home, I was breaking down but still very peaceful in my heart.

I didn't know why but I just want to trust in the Lord that my daddy is fine. I was totally confused and didn't know what to do as my dad died in Malaysia and not in Singapore. I had no choice but to seek help and I've never expected anything out of anything. I didn't know what to do at all. But Daddy God knew my difficulties and He had arranged everything for me and my family. From the point of embracing my daddy back home to Himself and to Heaven, bringing his body back home to Singapore until the cremation of his body, and even how Daddy God has really finished everything for me and my family.

At the very moment when I received the news, I had no one to ask but to go home and wait for my brother to go home and help out. He's the only one whom I thought that he can do everything this time.. Anyway, my brother is also very capable in my eyes. Well, Daddy God placed a dear friend's name into my mind and told me to call her. So, I called her and told her about the news. I didn't expect her to do anything at all. However, out of her were total grace and love that she started to do some arrangements and told me to be calm and wait for her so that she can bring me and my family into Malaysia.

She sacrificed her work and time to help me.. I really thank Daddy God for a great friend like her and also loads of friends, colleagues, dad's friends, etc whom I really have to thank Daddy God for. I now thank Daddy God for super-exceeding abundant blessings upon them who stood by me, throughout the temporary moment of loss. They are a true blessings to me and no amount of money can replace them at all, for they are so precious to me.. For those who are praying for me or not praying, or just reading, I thank Daddy God for the super-abundant blessings to be upon all of you oso.

Ok.. when my friend came to my house together with another lady from my church's funeral help ministry, I was so comforted coz I know that it's Daddy God who had arranged for them to be around to help me. I thank God that they sacrificed their own time so much to help me and the main thing is that none of them were paid by the church for their services in the ministry that they are serving. I'm truly touched by their sincerity and helps. This is really God's love coming out from them all. Prior to entering Malaysia, my brother and I had to get a lot of medical reports from doctors whom my dad had visited for his medical history. Praise God that we got the necessary reports within the time-frame of 2 hrs while waiting for my dear friends. Right after that, we went into J.B. and headed on to the hospital. When we reached there, I saw my dad's friends and I totally broke down. They comforted my mom, brother and I. They told us that my dad received his salvation in Jesus Christ. All of his friends there are Christians. They are his closest friends and they knew much more about my daddy.

I'm totally amazed about this coz they are his closest friends who had been ministering to him all the time when he's alive. My entire family and his friends also prayed for my daddy and we shared the gospel to him all the time when he's alive. In our hearts, everyone of us had the peace that he is already in Heaven, enjoying himself with Jesus and Daddy God, in the embracing Arms of our Beloved God.

Throughout the entire wake and the funeral, there had been so many friends and relatives around us who gave their time for us and stayed around with me and my family. I truly appreciated every one of their kindness. During the service which my pastor gave, we felt the ultimate peace in our hearts and my mom regained her strength. She said that she saw a cloud of Glory covering my dad's coffin and his picture. It was super amazing! And both of us actually had the same vision at one point of the service that we saw my dad's biggest smile. It was there and then, we knew in our hearts that he is safe and happy. More confirmations came when my mom and my sis-in-law told me that my dad was listening to a sermon once, in which I knew my dad doesn't do so in our presence esp when I'm around. :P

And right after that, one of my dear friend wrote in her blog Romans 5:5. And my heart just simply lifted off again! I remembered during the entire moment, i heard the Holy Spirit ever posed me questions whenever I started to doubt. He asked if I believed. And I told Him, YES. I believe and believe that Daddy God is in control of all things.

After the funeral, my mom and I had a very long talk about my dad and she told me of all the events that happened prior to the day he passed away. I realised that Daddy God is truly in control of all the events such as, bringing his friends whom he has never seen for some time to chat with him, sending people to watch over him, etc.. There are so many small things that I really thank Daddy God for coz it's all these small things that are big to me.

Well.. right now, I don't know what else to do but to take one step at a time. Thank God also that He strengthened my mom's heart. In fact, I have nothing to say but to say a lot of thanks to Daddy God and Jesus. Without Jesus, I will be totally lost. Jesus, Jesus.. What can I do without You? You are my Vine, my Righteousness, my Friend, my Everything and most importantly, You are my GOD! My Lord and my Savior. Nothing can replace You. Thank You Jesus. Your Love is just simply infinite for me and my family. Truly, I cannot live without You, Jesus. You are my Life!

Ok, I'll stop here for the moment.. Time to fetch my nephew to school. Now I understood how much my dad had sacrificed his time and rest for his entire family. This makes me love him even more.. And also my Jesus and Daddy God.. Thank You Jesus. I love You, Jesus!!