Dad has been really cool!! About His Protection and Provisions...
This year had been filled with quite some strong torrential storms but thank God for arming me with His Word, that nothing shall be any means harm me or my family. I was thinking through alot this year and always wondered what am I here for on earth? For once, I noticed that I didn't know God as much as I thought I had.
I started to question God about Himself and what does He want to do with me in my life? I've ranted at Him and refused to remember what He had done for me over the years in my career and personal life. It was like a moment of not able to recall what happened since I was young and I told God, give me back my childhood days.
Things started to change 2 years ago after I left a job that gave me a lot of pains and hurts for 4 years. Kindda felt rather so dumb about having toiled like a mad person and ended up all efforts actually came to nought with little or no recognition. Felt so devastated during then and my heart became so bitter to the point that I don't trust God anymore.
During the days after I left that job, I told myself that I shall not shed a tear over anything and I refused to shed any tears. Apparently, it's even more painful for not doing so, coz I'm bottling up all my pains within me. Ended up, my health deteriorated and my blood pressure shot up real high.
Many times, I wanted to just say goodbye to the world and ask Dad to bring me home coz I couldn't find any purpose to live a life here. I felt that life was so tough since childhood and wondered how come I still have to go through so much nonsense in life. I've questioned God many times and I can't seem to "hear" His answers.
I may have heard His answers but they never seem to etch deeply within me. I guess my mind was just ranting loudly and refused to quiet down to listen. This is something that I had been doing - that is, not giving time to the Lord. Till now, I'm still struggling with this and I really have no idea how to settle down quietly to listen to His voice.
to be continued.......
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Sustainability and protection - all for His love's sake
Last two weeks had been a week so filled with God's protection and sustainability. I had a bout of food poisoning after ingesting some roach droppings that happened to be cooked together with the rice. By the time I realised their existence in the rice, some of them had made their way into my stomach. In my mind, I told myself that it will not affect me and my week.
True enough, it didn't adversely affect me throughout the entire week until the end of all the conference meetings and a wkend hi-tea gathering with Ps Corey (from Australia) and my group of blogger friends. Daddy God, thank You for the protection during that entire week and keeping me with Your Strength.
Though the symptoms were minor during the conference meeting, they didn't stop my body from worshipping the Lord. The conference which I attended was "Releasing the Sound of Heavens" and it's all about praise and worship.
The entire conference was awesome with Ps Chris Dupree and Dan McCollam - having to learn about worshipping. Probably will post it one day about the worshipping and the different kinds of worship.
Right after the conference meeting, my stomach started to churn a bit more with lotsa air running ard my digestive tracts.. But Dad sustained me all the way until the end of the gathering with Ps Corey and the bloggers @ Lime Restaurant for hi-tea.
When I reached home, fever started breaking out and all went loosed - bowels.. ugh... green, watery, blah blah blah.. sure signs of food poisoning... Had a short sms-ing time with my Rock Kids leader - Cheryl, and she told me to take Holy Comm. I thank God for her who was placed in my life to remind me.
Right after taking the Holy Comm and some medications, i fell into a sleep - only to wake up abt 2 hrs later without any break from the fever. I got pretty mad this time and I asked the Holy Spirit to fight this food poisoning immediately. Amazingly, Dad.. the Holy Spirit fought the food poisoning immediately and the high fever broke right after the prayer. Still felt a little feverish and I took the last panadols to bring down the fever and slept through the night.
The next morning, the fever had gone leaving remnants of the food poisoning (i.e. rumbling stomach and solid state green bowels).. Still feeling the tiredness and boy.. my mom did got on my nerves. Though I snapped at her in church, I didn't feel much pain except to feel annoyed by her nonsense... Anyway, thank God that my grumpiness didn't last long and things went back normal after the service.. :P
Without any appetite for food and feeling nauseous, my stomach sure enjoyed the gummies!! Had so much of the gummies that I felt so happy after that.. lol.. anyway, sugars are meant to make you happy esp when your stomach is so upset.. :P Quite a way to cheer it up..
After the whole day in church, I decided to see the doctor for medications to restore the good bacteria in my tummy and I was given 2 days mc which I was like yay!! i can sleep more for the 2 days and really rest.
In essence after the whole week, I saw how Daddy God had been protecting me from the dreaded food poisoning and how He sustained me throughout the entire week to enjoy worshipping Him. This seemed to be like a warfare but the only thing in my head tells me is, I don't give a hoot to what the devil is trying to do on me. My God protects me with His shield, His Sword will just kill any evil that's trying to harm me, His Love will simply embrace me totally - like a child carried in His arms.
Thank You Dad for everything that through Lord Jesus Christ who died for me and sending the Holy Spirit to be my protector, healer, teacher, guidance and everything. In Jesus name, amen. =)
True enough, it didn't adversely affect me throughout the entire week until the end of all the conference meetings and a wkend hi-tea gathering with Ps Corey (from Australia) and my group of blogger friends. Daddy God, thank You for the protection during that entire week and keeping me with Your Strength.
Though the symptoms were minor during the conference meeting, they didn't stop my body from worshipping the Lord. The conference which I attended was "Releasing the Sound of Heavens" and it's all about praise and worship.
The entire conference was awesome with Ps Chris Dupree and Dan McCollam - having to learn about worshipping. Probably will post it one day about the worshipping and the different kinds of worship.
Right after the conference meeting, my stomach started to churn a bit more with lotsa air running ard my digestive tracts.. But Dad sustained me all the way until the end of the gathering with Ps Corey and the bloggers @ Lime Restaurant for hi-tea.
When I reached home, fever started breaking out and all went loosed - bowels.. ugh... green, watery, blah blah blah.. sure signs of food poisoning... Had a short sms-ing time with my Rock Kids leader - Cheryl, and she told me to take Holy Comm. I thank God for her who was placed in my life to remind me.
Right after taking the Holy Comm and some medications, i fell into a sleep - only to wake up abt 2 hrs later without any break from the fever. I got pretty mad this time and I asked the Holy Spirit to fight this food poisoning immediately. Amazingly, Dad.. the Holy Spirit fought the food poisoning immediately and the high fever broke right after the prayer. Still felt a little feverish and I took the last panadols to bring down the fever and slept through the night.
The next morning, the fever had gone leaving remnants of the food poisoning (i.e. rumbling stomach and solid state green bowels).. Still feeling the tiredness and boy.. my mom did got on my nerves. Though I snapped at her in church, I didn't feel much pain except to feel annoyed by her nonsense... Anyway, thank God that my grumpiness didn't last long and things went back normal after the service.. :P
Without any appetite for food and feeling nauseous, my stomach sure enjoyed the gummies!! Had so much of the gummies that I felt so happy after that.. lol.. anyway, sugars are meant to make you happy esp when your stomach is so upset.. :P Quite a way to cheer it up..
After the whole day in church, I decided to see the doctor for medications to restore the good bacteria in my tummy and I was given 2 days mc which I was like yay!! i can sleep more for the 2 days and really rest.
In essence after the whole week, I saw how Daddy God had been protecting me from the dreaded food poisoning and how He sustained me throughout the entire week to enjoy worshipping Him. This seemed to be like a warfare but the only thing in my head tells me is, I don't give a hoot to what the devil is trying to do on me. My God protects me with His shield, His Sword will just kill any evil that's trying to harm me, His Love will simply embrace me totally - like a child carried in His arms.
Thank You Dad for everything that through Lord Jesus Christ who died for me and sending the Holy Spirit to be my protector, healer, teacher, guidance and everything. In Jesus name, amen. =)
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